Ira sit on the bed edge and rubs her face after getting out of bed and look like sleep evaded her for the most part. porgington give a content sound as it splashes in the birdbath nearby.
“Am i stupid to agree to Ali and Jax idea, would i not just redo the same mistake again and again?..”
She stand up slowly and walk over to the porg and give it a soft petting as it let out a small happy trill sound at the attention.
"First Adush, a Chiss just with no second doubt proclaim he follow my lead and now …now Jax. A mando even, life certain take odd twist at times. Not that i have anything against mando as long it not Echani who talk crap about Eshan and forgotten their own culture and honor of being Echani. Still…Jax could join a clan before seeking me out and just …but he did not. "
The porg jump off and get over to his feeding spot and start crying for food and Ira give a tiny smirk at it before walking over to the small fridge and take out fish cut in small peices in a container. She then kneel down and give a piece to the porg who greedy and happy eat it from her hand then Ira place the rest of the fish on the bowl. She then place the container and stand up. She then get over to the shower and turn on the water before getting out of clothing and step inside the shower.
She wash herself before she end grabing her head as the nagging whisper creep in the backhead: "Dont tell me you plan to give up before even starting girl, stop being a -slave- to republic and just think you need green light for everything. Stop selling yourself short! "
She end placing the hands against the wall while the water washes over her. The mind replaying her life and choices then she end focusing on Jax’s words, Ali’s words, Kairos’s words, Dace’s words and Feya and her fingers end brushing against her own lips as her eyes slowly and gentle start to regain a glimmer of life and hope.
she stop the water and grab the towel and dry herself off before existing the shower and start to get dressed.
“There is going to be large roadblocks and problems for this although…how can i disappoint the trust placed with me so eagerly without trying. It a start, just like Isena’s collage is at it starting point still. We just have to claw our way through all the muck and political bantha poo. Fine, i place my trust and hope in you in return Jax. I pray you can push me forward if i falter, all of you in your own way…”
She adjust the gloves one by one and step over to grab the ritual brand in the back of the closet as she look over it.
“I might be bit late for the meeting Isena and for that you must forgive me, i have to do my part in something. Not just for what right but also for Rhirk…”
She open a drawer and take out a spare logo of dark moon with angel wings and look at it as she mumble “May the moon guide…”