Iskellia Sarken - Disturbing the Ashes

Iskellia Sarken - Disturbing the Ashes

OOC Note: This takes place a few months back, in-character. Before Iskellia lost her arm in the Republic Extremist event. And it’s technically still ongoing, as a RP between @announcer and myself. But the longer this is waiting to be posted, the more out-of-date it becomes. So I’m posting it in sections, to put SOMETHING up and canonized before this entire RP becomes hopelessly outdated.




“You have reached: Alderaan. Now arriving at: Pallista Spaceport,” the female-voiced droid says over the loudspeakers of the large public shuttlecraft.

Wearing a dark green hooded jacket, Iskellia keeps the hood up, covering her bald skull and concealing her face (what little of it can be seen anyway, over her respirator) as she hunches, slumping down into her seat. Seated next to her, the synesthesic Callista can still see her emotional aura flickering with the sickly greens of anxiety, the grays and browns of fear, the duller yellow of nervousness…Negative emotions roil and ripple around her in a visual cloud, reinforcing the unsteady rhythm of her respirator’s hiss.

“I…I didn’t think I would be …[hHH] this nervous,” she admits, the amplifier of her rebreather tuned low to keep her words below the ambient hum and chatter of the other passengers. “…It’s been…wow. Almost ten years since I left.” [khHH]

The younger, yet more senior Jedi looks over to Iskellia, her face somewhat unreadable. Her bright blonde hair is actually a bit better kept than usual, with a single pastel-pink clip helping to hold some of it in place at the side of her head. Her choice of attire is similarly casual, her old navy blue jacket and cargo pants she frequented around the time of her arrival on Viscara. She watches Iskellia with her grey-hazel eyes, and just gives a silent grin after a moment.

Without replying directly, she hops up from her seat and moves over to the window. The scenery passes swiftly by outside while the shuttle pulls in to land, and Callista’s expression of cheer only broadens as she looks up to the text-scrolling screen above the passenger aisles. With a little giggle, she steps forward and points up to it.

“Hey Iskie! Guess what?” she calls back, looking over her shoulder at first but then turning around while maintaining her point. “You brought Callista to Pallista!” she declares with a broad, willfully ridiculous grin.

Iskellia’s cloud of negativity goes blank for a moment in confusion, then ripples with a bright flash of astonished amusement as her smoky lung rasps a reluctant chuckle. “Heheh… You… [khhhh] You’re silly. Hee.”

She stands up with a hiss, coming over to join Callista at the window. A soaring gorgeous vista pans by, stretching out below them as the shuttle breaks through the cloud layer, and Callista can finally see the soaring natural beauty that Iskellia talked about for so long.

“Woooow…!” Callista marvels at the landscapes below, eyes lit up with wonder. “It’s like the Gladean Parks back home…!”

“Galdean Parks…?” Iskellia echoes, looking to her teacher with a visible ripple of curious bemusement.

“The Gladean State Parks on Chandrila,” the blonde reiterates with a grin over to Iskellia, looking nothing like a serene Jedi for the moment. Her smile shines with her eyes. “They were these biiiig stretches of land, at least one or two in almost every city. All full of gardens and fields and rivers, plants and animals of all kinds… my family used to always go out for picnics there, and we’d sit out on the balmgrass and watch the wild squalls play~…”

She giggles and gives a sigh. “It was beautiful… and so is Alderaan!”

Iskellia’s returning smile shines as well despite her respirator, the brightening of her mood visible in her glistening aura as she looks back out the window. “That it is…” she agrees quietly, looking over the soaring landscapes.

“Dr. Celchu, please report to Landing Bay 12…Last call, Dr. Celchu for flight to Corellia…”
“The Inter-House Security Bureau would like to remind passengers that complying with pilot instructions…”
“Axios Rist, please pick up your package at the front desk…”

Announcements and dronings of any normal spaceport sound over the public address systems as Iskellia and Callista step off the shuttle and make their way through the thronging crowds of people and sentients. Most of the people they pass seem to be Human, though the occasional Twi’lek or other alien are not uncommon.

The two Jedi step out of the starport, and Callista can notice a change coming over her friend and student. The years of swagger and bluster learned from the hard streets of Nar Shaddaa seem to drain away, leaving her almost timid and hesitant as she looks around the snow-dappled city structures. A massive citadel looms in the distance, but with plenty of structures and city streets between here and there.

Iskellia’s sunken eyes close for a moment, and she audibly takes a deep hissing breath of the clean, crisp mountain air. [HHHHHHHHHh…phhhffffff…] “I’d forgotten this smell…” she murmurs almost to herself, looking up towards the sparkling blue skies.

After a long moment, she shakes her head and seems to come back to her senses. “Um. So, welcome to Alderaan!” She spreads her arms wide, indicating the views around them.

[KhHHHh] “…Now that I think of it, actually, I’m…not entirely sure where to begin looking,” Iskellia admits. “For parts and things. I had been thinking of some of the smooth river stones near…[hHHh]… my old home, or maybe some volcanic glass. But…[hHHh] …to be honest, I, uh…I’m not totally sure where that…is. Heh.”

She looks around again, then up at the soaring citadel in the distance. “…That’s Castle Organa,” she identifies for Callista’s benefit. “Republic’s strongest ally here, and one of the highest royal Houses. …[hHHh]…House Organa prides themselves on, well, lots of things, but among them compassion and civic duty. …[HHhh]…Most relevant to us, the Organa Libraries are one of the most extensive on the planet. If anyone needs to find anything, they can start in there.”

“Well, maybe they have records of where House Sarken is, then? Or some volcanoes?” Callista suggests with a smile, already starting on her way towards the towering palace. “C’mon, let’s go! I’ve never been in a castle before, I wanna see!”

Iskellia’s emotional aura shifts from hesitation to brighter amusement at Callista’s enthusiasm. Chuckling, she leads Callista through the streets of Aldera, weaving in among the busy foot traffic and occasional land and airspeeders whizzing through the wide avenues. While certainly no megalopolis like Coruscant or Nar Shaddaa, the capitol city of a Core World is still very much the bustling hub of activity. The two of them pass numerous defensive installations and turrets as they approach the castle, all crewed by Humans in elegant uniforms who nod to the visitors with friendly smiles.

Up close, Castle Organa is even more impressive than it was at a distance, its soaring spires reaching towards space, with a wide welcoming entrance archway. Inside, beyond a small atrium to ensure proper flow of foot traffic, the castle is a stunning sight of architectural beauty, red carpets and gold trimmings, with towering statues of important Organa statesmen looking regally down upon the visiting Jedi.

Despite the towering halls, the ceilings are so high that sound is not amplified, but is instead almost hushed by the acoustics, giving the castle an atmosphere of both intimacy and grand opulence. Iskellia looks around the towering environs, seeming almost as surprised as Callista as she simply gawks at the sheer scale of casual wealth on display.

[hHh]…Woah. It’s…a lot bigger than I remember it,” she comments. "I knew Organa was powerful, and, y’know, the grandest of all the Great Houses and everything…but…holy crap~."

Callista wanders around in apparent distraction, examining every aspect of the massive chambers they pass through. Iskellia can practically see the bottled-up, child-like urges to touch and climb on things playing out on Callista’s face as the young, teenage Knight follows her Padawan along. It was easy to forget, sometimes, how young she really was.

“Where’s the library?” she asks in a hush, seeming almost afraid to speak loudly in such a place. “We might have to ask for directions…”

“Yeah…” Iskellia nods. Looking around, she approaches two men in discussion, both wearing finery of blue and silver.

“Cortess wants to get a new ally appointed to the barony…” One mutters quietly to the other, deep in conversation.

Iskellia pauses at that, but the two of them look over to her as the hiss of her respirator makes her known. The first man, wearing a neat goatee, wrinkles his nose in fascinated horror as his eyes roam over Iskellia’s mutilated face. His companion, clean-shaven with a strong jaw, has a more controlled reaction as he offers a genteel nod. Callista can see a pang of anxiety flicker through her Padawan’s emotional aura, but it’s too late to back off now.

[hHhh] “…Excuse me, sirs,” she rasps, “where can we find the Royal Library?”

“The Royal Library?” The bearded man repeats, looking down at Iskellia’s shabbier street clothes and burnt appearance. His expression hardens. “If you’re looking to fence some books, don’t bother. There’s a perfectly serviceable vagrant’s shelter just down the street.”

“At least try to have some manners, Rydell!” His companion snaps at him. “This is a public area, remember?”

Rydell scoffs and rolls his eyes, and the other man shakes his head before smiling at Iskellia. "Forgive my brother’s rudeness, ma’am, he still struggles with the necessity of discretion," he aims this last word through gritted teeth at Rydell. “Kirnon Cortess. What can I help you with?”

“Just finding the Royal Library,” Iskellia repeats. She pauses as a flash of recognition dawns in her sunken eyes, and she can’t seem to help herself from adding, “Cortess…? What brings an ally of House Thul…[hHhh] to the halls of the Organas?”

“Oh, just a territory dispute,” Kirnon rolls his eyes. “Boring stuff, but one has to put on a show. Anyway…the Royal Library’s going to be up those stairs there, second hall on the left,” he points further down the yawning golden halls.

“Thanks,” Iskellia nods.

As she turns to go, Kirnon adds, “But now I’m curious…I wouldn’t think a random visitor to know anything about House alliances of Alderaanian politics, but you rattled that off like a native.” His eyes narrow. “What’s your name?”

Iskellia’s mask puffs for a moment, and Callista can see a flash of panic, followed instantly by frustrated regret at her verbal slip-up as she hesitates. “Um…”

Callista just smiles in return, perhaps comfortingly or perhaps just being unhelpfully cryptic. As the moment stretches on slightly, she just gives a tiny shrug of her head and a nod towards the man, seemingly encouraging her to respond.

“I…Iskellia,” the psion says.

“Iskellia…?” Kirnon raises his eyebrows expectantly.

Iskellia audibly swallows. “…Sarken.”

“Sarken, Sarken, Sarken…” Kirnon muttters to himself, his eyes roaming over the unscarred side of her face searchingly. “That’s…familiar…Not one of the Greats, one I haven’t heard for a long time…”

He snaps his fingers. “Ah! Kandor, yes? Financial Minister of…Jeranno, wasn’t it?”

She winces, then draws herself up. “…Yes. He’s my father.”

“…Aha,” Kirnon gives a cold smile. “So then you’re that little problem that turned that little town inside out back then. He was always vague about what brought him here. Well, well. How time flies, hmm?”

Iskellia folds her arms. “Little problem?” she repeats, affronted.

Kirnon’s smile drains away, and he actually shrinks back a half-step. “Well, not problem as such…You’ll be happy to know that the vassals and allies of House Thul are now much more closely watched for…gifted…individuals, since your little, ah…escapades. Besides,” he lowers his voice secretively, "thanks to Thul’s alliance with the Sith Empire, we’re always happy to receive those with…potential."

Iskellia’s mask hisses as she breathes deeply, clearly struggling with a rising tide of anger.

Callista finally takes this as her cue to step in, and she gives a gentle smile while approaching the trio. “Thank you for your help, Mr.-… er, Sir-… Lord…?” she twists her expression in indecision for a moment before bowing her head. “Thank you! It’s good to know that cases like Iskellia’s are being cared for now.”

Though her demeanor is far from the nuanced courtesies of a courtly noble, her polite and diplomatic tone comes through well in her soft-spoken voice, addressing the man with respect and ease that comes with a certain degree of experience in dealing with those who might consider themselves ‘above’ her. “Before we go, though, I actually had a question or two of my own if it isn’t too much trouble? I know you must be busy, we appreciate you taking the time to speak with us!”

Kirnon’s smile instantly returns as he turns to the far less threatening, far more approachable alternative to Iskellia’s temper. “Of course, young lady! It’s no trouble at all, I assure you…How can I assist you?”

Iskellia turns away, taking a moment to close her eyes and attempt to compose herself again.

For just a brief instant, Iskellia can feel the faint flutter of Callista’s presence in the Force as if spritzing her like a reassuring mist while the blonde occupies the Cortess brothers’ attention. “We were actually hoping to go visit Iskellia’s old home town, would you happen to know where it is? She’s been away a long time, and never really had to navigate for herself when she lived here.”

“Juranno? Of course, it’s a short speeder ride to the west,” Kirnon smiles at her. “Or, if you want something more scenic, you could even ride a thranta there. There’s a liftoff terminal just outside the main gate, down the street.”

"A thranta?" Callista asks in surprise and sudden, fascinated excitement. She leans back slightly as her eyes widen with wonder at the mere concept. "Those big flying things outside? You can ride them??"

“Oh, yes!” Kirnon assures her with a nod. “They’re quite docile creatures, and fly from nest to nest, easily converted into our own local transportation network. It’s a far better tour than the shuttle fly-over, highly recommended by all the tourism bureaus.”

“Perhaps you’d better join the Tourism Bureau yourself, Kirnon,” Rydell puts in acidly. “You certainly enjoy batting eyes at any woman who walks within ten meters of you.”

Kirnon sighs. “Do excuse us, ladies, business calls… and Welcome home, Lady Sarken,” he adds to Iskellia as the psion turns around again. She simply gives a cold nod to him, and he shrugs, turning back towards his brother and walking away.

“…What a snake,” Iskellia grates as soon as the two are out of earshot. She emits a sigh, adding under her breath, “By the way, for most nobles we meet here…[hHHh] it’s going to be Lord X or Lady X.”

“Pardon me…” A soft voice comes from behind them. The two women turn as the speaker steps forward from her position around the corner of one of the towering statues. As she enters the light, the golden hues of the Castle reveal the simple brown robes and tan tunic of a Jedi! The Nautolan woman smiles at them as she clasps her hands, her large dark eyes looking between the still-hooded Iskellia and the cheerful Callista. “I couldn’t help but hear…You’re seeking the old estate of House…Sarken?”

Callista looks back with a curious expression, eyes passing over the woman a few times as well as the space around her. “Yeah, that’s right,” she affirms positively with a glance to Iskellia. “It’s where she used to live, and we wanted to pay it a visit.”

The Jedi looks between the two of them, her aura (to Callista’s eyes) mingling between shock and hope.

“You!” Iskellia’s mask hisses in a gasp, and she raises her head and throws her hood back, staring with wide eyes.

The Jedi gives an ecstatic gasp of joy upon seeing her face, rushing forward and enfolding the scarred psion in a careful hug around her shoulders. "Iskellia! You are alive!"

Instead of squirming awkwardly like Callista has seen her do in 90% of all hugs, Iskellia slumps forward into the embrace, returning the gesture in disbelief and deep gratitude. The two of them remain enfolded for a good several moments before the Jedi steps back, looking Iskellia up and down. “But what’s all this? What did they do to you?” She prods Iskellia’s armored brace over her right arm.

[hHhh] “They…well, they did a lot of stuff…” Iskellia rubs her neck.

The Nautolan stares at her for a moment, then blinks and turns to Callista. “I’m sorry, how rude of me. Forgive my manners. I’m Jedi Knight Karsa Neyari,” she introduces herself, reaching out her hand towards Callista.

“It’s so nice to meet you!” Callista reaches forward with both hands to clasp the Nautolan’s and shakes with a sort of gentle vigor. “I’m Knight Callista Selkin. Iskellia’s my Padawan!”

Karsa’s large black eyes get even wider, if that’s even possible, and her radiance erupts in purest joy and pride. “I knew I sensed the Force strongly in you two! But, wait, you’re a Jedi? Where are your robes?”

She pauses, blinking her huge eyes. “…Wait, ISKELLIA is a Jedi?!”

“Um. Surpriiiiiiiiise…!” Iskellia offers a little shyly.

“This, this is everything I could have hoped!” Karsa beams. “Back then, I could feel the Force within you, all that power and potential… but wild and raw, unrefined. I’m so incredibly happy you found a Master, found your way to us Jedi!”

“…I should explain,” Iskellia adds to Callista, “she’s the one who…[hHhh] who pulled me out of the fire, brought me to the hospital…”

“Yes, indeed,” Karsa nods, her beaming grin lessening slightly. “You see, I’m a diplomatic Consular from the High Council on Coruscant, part of the official diplomatic envoy to Alderaan.”

“Really?” Callista looks to Karsa with genuine fascination. “That’s amazing! I’m a Consular too – well sort of, anyway, it’s the style that I think fits me best. And Iskellia’s going to be one too, I think!”

“That’s wonderful! Both of you Consulars?” Karsa asks, grinning.

“Well, it’s either that or maybe a Sentinel…my first Master said I’d make…[hHHh] a good Investigator…” Iskellia shrugs. “But after the fires…even with all the cardio and training of the Jedi, I’m still a lot…[hHhh]… weaker, physically…than pretty much every other Jedi on our planet.” She lowers her head, her emotional aura of joy flickering with frustration and shame.

“So, you decided to become a Consular?” Karsa asks.

Iskellia waves her hand in an ambivalent motion. “I guess? Not really because I’m any good at diplomacy…I mean, I’ve still got all my…[Hhhh] … nobility skills from around here, I can switch that on and off when I need to…But no, it was more because my natural talents are so heavily with Force use and telekinetics. …[hHHh] On top of that, I’ve had to learn a lot about medicine and Force Healing, so I thought…specializing into a Jedi Healer could be an interesting career. …[hHHh] Since, y’know, there’s no such thing as a Jedi Airspeeder-Thrower. Heh.”

“So, yeah,” she sighs, “there’s a lotta different directions I’m wanting to take my Jedi career…[khHhh]…Consular, Healer, Investigator, Force specialist… it’s a whole thing.”

Karsa nods understandingly. “It’s a lot to sort through,” she agrees. Looking to Callista, she adds, “So, what brings you two to Alderaan? Or…back to Alderaan?”

Callista eyes Iskellia for a moment with a faint hint of sympathy, but she holds her thoughts for the time being, just placing a hand on Iskellia’s back and rubbing softly to assuage her. “Well, um, Iskellia’s lightsaber, actually. I’m teaching her how to build one, running through all the mechanics and stuff with her every so often, and she was thinking she might want some elements for the hilt exterior taken from here on Alderaan!”

“Plus it could be a good chance to practice my own diplomacy skills,” the blonde adds with a light-hearted smile. “I’m, uh, new to being a Knight, and… none of the people who trained me were Consulars. So that’s a challenge.”

Karsa smiles, brushing one of her head-tentacles behind her shoulder. “Well, if you like, I can give you advice and pointers,” she offers. “You know, one Knight-diplomat to another~?”

“That would be great! I’d love that,” Callista answers brightly, subconsciously mirroring the Nautolan by brushing back some of her blonde hair behind her ear.

“Good, good,” Karsa nods, looking back to Iskellia. “So, you were wanting to use some authentic Alderaanian materials for your lightsaber? Do you have something particular in mind?”

Iskellia nods. “Yeah, I…I was thinking of finding a piece of the river rocks by the old mansion, maybe incorporate that…[hHhh] into the hilt somehow. Or maybe some volcanic glass…”

“River rocks and volcanic glass…?” Karsa quirks a brow curiously.

“River rocks, from a spot that my…[hHHh] my Mom took me to when I was little,” Iskellia says quietly. “And then volcanic glass, magma, because…” She gestures up at her scorched and scarred face with her equally mutilated left hand.

Karsa’s face falls slightly, her aura mixing happiness with sympathy and pity. “…Because you want a lightsaber that reflects your outer appearance, not who you actually are?” She finishes bluntly.

Iskellia blinks at her, boggling. “…'scuse me?”

“I was hoping she’d figure that part out on her own,” Callista leans in and whispers to Karsa.

“Apparently not,” the Nautolan murmurs back.

“I’m sure Master Selkin taught you that the lightsaber is a reflection of your inner self and your pure being,” she lectures. “It’s not something that changes according to your appearance, unless whatever outer scars you bear truly changed your fundamental being. You don’t…you don’t make your lightsaber blue because you put on a blue shirt that day! Right?” She chuckles.

“Wh–I–you don’t–” Iskellia sputters, her eyes wide.

“What?” Karsa asks her, a small smile playing about her lips.

“You don’t under–”

“–Oh but I do understand,” Karsa interrupts her, putting admonishment into her tone as her smile vanishes completely, like flipping off a switch. "I was there too, lest you forget. I know exactly what you went through, Iskellia Sarken, because I pulled you out of that hellfire. You think your scars are bad? You never saw your wounds fresh." Her voice quivers with emotion, which Callista can see reflected in her shimmering aura of horror, relief, disgust, dismay and shock.

“And I stayed by your intensive care room until your condition stabilized and you had a living prognosis. I know exactly what the doctors did to you, even more than you do because you were unconscious for most of it.”

Even Iskellia’s mask has fallen silent in shock at the sudden lecture.

Karsa continues, “And while I didn’t have the pleasure of meeting you personally before that fire, I looked into what I could of your past, and what I saw was a bright, intelligent young girl who just… couldn’t control the power inside her. Raw power and natural talent in the Force – even as much talent as yours (which is rarer than you might think) – is completely separate from intellect.”

“You’re not stupid, Iskellia. And I won’t accept bluster for an answer either. You know you can’t just hide behind your scars and play the victim card – even if you do have the best, most understandable, most sympathetic Victim Card in the galaxy I’ve ever seen.”

Iskellia just boggles at her. Callista can see outrage and anger roiling and bubbling in her emotional aura, but her instinctively aggressive response is subsumed under a layer of baffled shock at Karsa’s cutting retort.

Karsa stares at her levelly for a long moment, punctuated only by Iskellia’s hissing mask and the psion’s sputtering attempts at a comeback. Then, just as suddenly as it vanished, the Consular Knight’s smile returns in full blossom as she reaches out and pats Iskellia comfortingly on the shoulder. “I’m sorry. I interrupted you. You were about to tell me I don’t understand something?”

Iskellia just blinks, thrown completely off-balance now.
Callista looks on in silent surprise for a moment. Finally, after an awkward silence, she collects her own thoughts enough to interject. “…It was never really about acknowledging the fire that ‘forged’ you, was it, Iskellia?” she says, putting it more gently.

“I…” Iskellia coughs, giving Karsa a decidedly wary look before turning her gaze to Callista, then to the floor. "I… I thought that’s what it was about…That’s what I’ve told myself it was about… " She mutters, her mask still amplifying clearly.

“But I guess… Some part of me still can’t… [khHHh]… quite let go of it yet. Maybe it was just an excuse. I dunno.” Iskellia emits a hissing sigh, looking down.

“Hey. Look at me.” Karsa’s voice is soft as she reaches out to gently take the bottom of Iskellia’s mask as her chin, raising the psion’s gaze up to her again. “It’s okay not to know. Emotions are complicated, and the root causes behind our impulses can be messy and chaotic, coming from many sources at once that defy easy and simple summaries for others. I don’t want you psychoanalyzing yourself, beating yourself down. Or up. Constantly second and third and fourth-guessing yourself is a path that leads to madness.”

She leans back, folding her hands serenely. “Instead, as Jedi we must trust in the Force and allow its wisdom to guide us in times of uncertainty and doubt,” she says, as smoothly as any textbook.

“…Remember that thing I told you, Iskellia? About holding out your hand and closing your eyes, and feeling your lightsaber?” Callista offers her with a soft smile.

Iskellia nods, looking to her again. “Yeah…?”

“Did you ever actually try it?” She tilts her head, prodding helpfully.

“Of course I did!” Iskellia retorts, but the perceptive Callista can see the uncertainty flickering around her emotional aura.

“Perhaps another try would yield a different result?” Karsa suggests.

“I… Maybe…” Iskellia looks around the bustling castle. “Let’s find somewhere a little… [KHhhh] quieter than this for it, anyway…”

Callista gives a little smirk and a nod, then smiles to Karsa. “If you’re not too busy, would you like to come along?”

Karsa pauses for a moment in consideration, then nods. “I would be honored. I’d love the opportunity to get to know the person I saved all those years ago.” She smiles at Iskellia. “If you wouldn’t mind me coming along. I know this is a very personal journey for you.”

“I…” Iskellia hesitates for a moment as her aura shimmers with anxiety and uncertainty. “I suppose? I just…Maybe we shouldn’t be… [khHh] here at all in the first place anymore. I don’t really…I’m not sure anymore what my lightsaber design should be, or…[hHH] whether it needs Alderaanian materials at all. Maybe I…I dunno.”

“No second-guessing yourself, remember?” Karsa reminds her lightly. “Your lightsaber should reflect the core of who you are. If you can’t find it here on Alderaan, where else in the galaxy would you find it?”

Iskellia emits a quiet hissing sigh. “…Yeah. Good point,” she admits. “So, where do we go from here?”

“Well…” Karsa smiles at Callista. “I can tell the look of someone itching to touch and explore an Alderaanian castle when I see one. How about I give Callista a tour, then we can go to your old home here in Aldera and see what speaks to you? And from there, to Juranno?”

“…Yeah. Yeah, okay.” Iskellia nods, her anxiety diminishing somewhat in the face of somebody else making the decisions.

"Woooo! Castle tour!" Callista squees in excitement, bouncing on her heels.

Karsa chuckles. “Well, then…we start by finding ourselves here, in the Grand Hall of Organa Castle…”

She gives a sweeping gesture to encompass the soaring hall, then leads the two of them towards a large staircase curving upwards, festooned with crimson and gold. “Built over the course of decades even with the most advanced constructor droids and skilled artisans available, Castle Organa has stood for centuries as the centerpiece of Alderaanian nobility…Each of the statues you see around us was a respected leader and royalty of House Organa, usually endowed with statuary in honor of great deeds either for the House itself or for the Republic as a whole.”

Iskellia drifts closer, examining a placard at random.
Zallen Organa (3717-3782), Duke of Glarus. Brokered peace between House Cortess and House Syrush during the Cocktail Succession Crisis of 3742.

“…Cocktail Succession Crisis…?” she murmurs.

Karsa glances over. “Oh, yes. There was a cocktail party where the ruler of House Cortess at the time choked on a piece of shrimp and was taken to the infirmary. The problem was that he had declared war against House Syrush, but the charter of House Cortess declared that if its ruler was indisposed, the eldest son takes the throne instead. This sparked off an internal succession crisis within Cortess about who leads and whether or not to go to war against Syrush. Zallen Organa was the lead negotiator who brokered the peace and settled the issue.”

Iskellia emits a hissing sigh. “…Yeah, that sounds like the kind of stupidity…[kHhh] that would spark a succession crisis around here…”

Moving on, Karsa brings them up a wide grand staircase into an upper gallery, where the three of them look down over a soaring view of the Grand Hall itself.


Karsa brings the two of them along the gallery into a series of halls and rooms, from the banquet hall…

…to bustling guest quarters…

…to richly opulent staterooms…

…lavish reception halls…

…and even an advanced communications hub, tucked discreetly away in a side hall and festooned with consoles and terminals.

Even Iskellia seems to be impressed, her eyes wide and gawking as they move through the halls of power. “I gotta say…” she admits to Callista as the tour continues, “I don’t know whether to call this place insane or beautiful…[hHhh]…I’ve never been to one of the Great Castles before. My House wasn’t anywhere close to this kind of stuff…!”

She hesitates, admitting, “…Okay, maybe…[hHhh] some of the rooms were close.”

Despite her initial excitement, Callista gradually quiets down over the course of the tour. By the end, she is reduced to a polite smile and some periodic comments and ‘oohs’ and ‘aahs’. She chuckles softly at Iskellia’s remark.

“Well this is all super impressive,” she grants, eyes wandering all around still. “I like all the gold, it makes it look bright and happy.”

“Oh yeah,” Iskellia nods, “totally. …[hHh] …I didn’t know the Organas had such cheerful interior decorators.”

Karsa chuckles. “Certainly in comparison to Thul and its allies, which I’m sure you’re far more familiar with.”

Iskellia nods again.

“Well.” Karsa clasps her hands together, looking to Callista with a smile. “Anything else you’d like to see here? We can stop for lunch in the East Reception Hall if you’re hungry. There’s also armories and dungeons and such if you’re more interested in that…”

“Lunch sounds good…but…[hHhh] I think I’m more interested in staying on track. …[hHh] I’m sure we could get lost in this castle for days…” Iskellia looks around the soaring halls.

“Yeah, let’s go see the thrantas!” Callista says with a grin returning to her face. “I wanna ride a thranta! Can we, canwecanwecanwe??”

“Of course,” Karsa chuckles. “We’ll take one to Juranno. But first, I think Iskellia has been putting off the inevitable long enough.”

“Gee, thanks.” Iskellia gives a filtered sigh. “All right, lemme go check…[hHhh] where we’re going.”

“…You don’t remember where your House was?” Karsa quirks an eyebrow.

Ignoring that, Iskellia takes them through one of the larger archways they haven’t explored yet, where the Jedi find themselves in a soaring cavernous space, hushed voices bouncing distantly off the faraway ceiling, with rows upon rows upon rows of datacard archives and terminals stretching off away from them.

“The Grand Royal Library,” Karsa waves her hand over the vista.

Iskellia’s attention, though, is on the large reference desk in the middle of the library space. Walking slowly, she steps up to the counter of a small old woman with a bun of snow-white hair. Callista can see wonder and anxiety suddenly shimmering around her student as the psion steps up to the desk.

“Ummm…” The forthright Iskellia actually hesitates. “Hi, uh…Could you help me find something?”

“Hmmm?” the old lady squints at her, and Iskellia actually shrinks back a half-step, her aura pulsing with fear. “Yes, of course, what is it?”

“Ms…Bestov, right?” Iskellia drums her fingers on the counter, then points. “…uhh…nametag.”

“Oh. Yes, that’s me, dear, what do you need?” Ms. Bestov gives a tremulous smile.

I’m searching for…[hHhh] the address of House… Sarken." Iskellia pauses a moment longer as the lady squints at her, trying to place the one-fourth of Iskellia’s unscarred face that can be seen. Another moment passes, then she finally shrugs without apparent recognition.

“House Sarken?” The lady tsks pityingly. “Terrible business, that…Terrible business. You won’t find much there now. The whole estate burned down ten years ago.”

“Burned down?” Iskellia asks as if this is new to her.

“Oh yes,” Ms. Bestov nods. “The ruins are still there, since the master of the House moved off-world. Nobody’s built anything back since then either.” She leans closer. “They say it’s cursed, actually…Haunted by the ghost of the little psychic girl who lived there. Whole family burned alive, except the father, thank the Force. They say she killed a half-dozen people in life, and a dozen more as her vengeful spirit wanders the ruins!”

Iskellia’s shoulders slump, and Callista can see her aura darken and dampen with depression, regret, astonishment, outrage, and even a little flicker of amusement. She remains quiet for a moment, absorbing this.

Karsa catches Callista’s eye and tilts her head invitingly towards Iskellia.

Callista glances at Karsa, then at Iskellia, and steps up beside her padawan. “That’s fine, we don’t believe in silly old curses. Besides…” she pats Iskellia’s back softly. “Padawan Sarken is here to make peace with all of that. We just need directions, please.”

Iskellia cringes at Callista calling her out, and Ms. Bestov’s eyes widen. “…Sarken…??”

“…Iskellia….?” She stares at Iskellia for a moment, her gaze roaming over the visible half of Iskellia’s scarred face. “It….IS you…… Back from the dead…”

“Half,” Iskellia rasps, fixing her with a baleful stare.

“I…can see that…Here to make peace, hmmm? Some things are better left buried.” Ms. Bestov’s lips thin. “You were always a bright student, Iskellia… but you never knew when to leave well alone.”

Iskellia stares back at her, folding her arms defiantly as her aura thrums with fear. “I’ve left alone for the past 10 years…[hHHh]…I need to put all this to rest.”

“It already is,” the old teacher retorts.

Iskellia just glares at her.

Ms. Bestov sighs. “…But if you really want to poke around that old ash heap…It’s a mile or so outside the city proper, to the southeast.” She taps a few buttons, and the holodisplay behind her shifts to an aerial view of Aldera, with a red dot appearing where she says.

"Thank you," Iskellia growls, copying the information to her datapad.

“Thank you, ma’am,” Callista maintains her polite smile and bows. “You’ve been very helpful. Please have a lovely day!”

With that, she pats Iskellia’s back again and turns to walk away.

Iskellia stares at her old teacher for a moment. Then she closes her eyes for a moment and puffs a filtered sigh. “… Sorry, Ms. Bestov. But I need to see this through.”

The old teacher blinks at her. “… Well. That’s a first… You never apologized for anything back then. Prideful to a fault.”

Turning to follow Callista, Iskellia pauses and looks back. “…I left that part of me in the ashes.”

The old woman doesn’t really have a response to that, and as another patron comes up to the desk, she has to turn to help the newcomer. But her eyes never leave Iskellia until they’re out of sight.

As Karsa leads the Jedi out of Organa Castle and down the street, Iskellia’s shoulders slump as they walk. “So I’m a ghost now, huh…?.. [hHhhh]… Creepy little psychic girl’s vengeful spirit…”

“Cheer up, Isk,” Callista offers a little smile and punches Iskellia softly in the arm with all the force of a thrown cotton ball. “Being a ghost sounds cool.”

With a faint smirk as they walk, she adds, “Don’t put too much stock in it. The only ‘ghost’ around here is the person you used to be. Just look around.” She lifts a hand and gestures broadly to the open streets, the speeders and thrantas passing over head, the people talking amongst themselves by the corners and and buildings. “…Do you see anyone running scared?”

She looks around dutifully at the people. “…No,” Iskellia admits.

“Then don’t put so much stock into local rumor and superstition,” Karsa advises with a smile. “The people of Alderaan simply don’t know anything about Force Sensitivity or how to react to such a child.”

“So now they’re all stupid instead?” Iskellia heaves a hissing sigh. “Yeah, that sounds about right…”

"I never said that. " Karsa frowns mildly at her. “Are you always such a pessimist?”

The psion’s shoulders slump again. “Usually, yeah. I find it fits…[hHHh]… more often than not.”

Karsa sighs. “Look, Jedi are supposed to refrain from moral or relativistic judgements on other people… Especially if you want to become a Consular or diplomat. I don’t know where a noble of Alderaan learned to speak so bluntly.”

“Nar Shaddaa,” Iskellia rasps.

The Nautolan Knight’s frown deepens. “Oh. …That explains a great deal.”

Iskellia sighs and looks down at her datapad. “I’d forgotten the house was outside the city itself…c’mon, let’s take a speeder.”

The three Jedi walk down the street to a small kiosk, where a simple button push lights up a tower with a large yellow light. A minute or so later, a large yellow airspeeder slides smoothly in towards them. Piling aboard, Iskellia shows her datapad to the droid pilot and hands him a credstick, and they take off into the air, hovering about 50 feet off the ground.

The speeder ride is fairly short, but gives the three of them ample time to look around the stunning views and vistas of Alderaan, misty mountains soaring above sweeping fields and plains.

Despite her earlier slump, Callista can see Iskellia’s mood beginning to pick up again as she looks around, reminding herself of where she is. Even with all the tragedy in her past, it’s clear the dour Iskellia still holds an appreciation and love for Alderaan and its chilling, cold natural beauty.

Callista just smiles to herself and looks around at the sights as they carry on, glad to see the improvement in her friend’s demeanor.

As the speeder goes on, Iskellia begins to sit up in the seat, looking around with more interest as she recognizes sights and landmarks, pointing out a few to Callista as they go. A tree that she liked to sit under here, a little forest or peaceful stream there.

However, as the speeder turns down a long lane of trees and speeds along a durasteel stretch of road, Iskellia’s manner changes again, and it’s soon apparent why. The treetop cover parts, and a dramatic sight greets the three Jedi: A looming, towering edifice of durasteel and stone integrated with the surrounding mountains stands above them, blackened with fire damage, its windows yawning open and empty like gaping wounds. Vines crawl up one wall, blanketing it in greenery, while accumulated snowfall cloaks the upper tops of the roof, beams and eaves.

Iskellia stares up at it in abject horror, her mask falling silent as she seems to even forget how to breathe in the overwhelming shock of the sight…





OOC: Part 2 may take a little bit, since it’s still in progress! I’ll make a new reply when it’s ready.

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Iskellia stares up at it in abject horror, her mask falling silent as she seems to even forget how to breathe in the overwhelming shock of the sight.

“Oh, my…it’s fallen into total disrepair,” Karsa comments. “I’d heard that nobody rebuilt on the old grounds, but I didn’t think it had fallen into complete ruin like this.”

The three Jedi climb out, but Iskellia is totally nonresponsive. She takes a step towards the house, but her legs seem to fail her as she falters, then sinks down to her knees, staring, staring, staring as her aura flickers in a riot of color in Callista’s sight: Shock, horror, grief, sadness, outrage, melancholy, curiosity and fear all battling for control. “…I…”

Callista quietly looks on at first, at Iskellia one moment and the dilapidated ghost of a home the next. Part of her can’t help but wonder what the scarred woman was expecting to find instead of this. With a silent glide of a step towards her Padawan, she just rests a hand on her back.

“It’s okay,” she whispers softly. “Just take a moment…”

After a long moment, Iskellia seems to remember how to breathe again as her mask puffs with emotion. Her thin shoulders shake under her jacket, both from the mountain foothill cold and her own emotions as her breath audibly trembles.

It takes a good solid minute before Iskellia is able to climb to her feet again, her gait heavy with sorrow and wonder as she plods forward. Wordlessly, Karsa follows in her wake.

The opulent walnut front door is blown off its hinges, lying askew on the floor of the front hall. Walnut around solid durasteel, Callista notes – not that it did any good against the small explosive marks on the hinges of the doorframe. Shaped charges, surely.

Iskellia stands in the front hall, trembling, awash with memories, her presence in the Force flooding over with them. With her double synesthesia vision amid the flood of memory and image that Iskellia is almost unconsciously radiating, Callista can almost half-see the faint ghosts of the past at the edges of her vision, overlaid eerily atop the burnt and scorched rubble.

Iskellia wanders to another large room off to the side, a flame-scorched case on one wall holding stacks of ruined datacards, the burnt-out husks of two armchairs by the gaping black hole of a fireplace, a collapsed couch nearby as well. “This…was the living room…” she murmurs, and with a flood of empathic emotion Callista is actually able to half-see the faint ghosts of memory: A tall, raven-haired woman with striking green eyes sitting in an armchair by the empty hole of the fireplace; a severe older man with a pronounced widow’s peak sitting at the desk in the corner. Floating blocks and stuffed animals dangle in the center of the living room, and a half-remembered song, more tune than words, flickers in and out at the edges of hearing.

Iskellia wanders through her home, and each room they pass through is the same jarring contrast of collapsed ceilings and burnt rubble, overlaid with half-glimpses of domestic peace and happy tranquility. Karsa stays quiet, staring at Iskellia with her wide dark eyes that moisten with sympathy at the flood of emotion pouring from the scarred psion. The Nautolan leans over to Callista as Iskellia wanders to the next room. “I wasn’t aware she was so strongly empathic in the Force…!” Karsa mutters to her fellow Knight.

“…It doesn’t happen often,” Callista answers lowly, rubbing a sleeve across her own glistening eyes. “But she’s never… projected like this before…”

Karsa nods slowly. “Well, if there’s one place in the galaxy where she would have the strongest emotions, it would be here,” she comments quietly.

Iskellia continues her maudlin tour, and in every room is more scarred and destroyed opulence, marble and rare woods and elegant sweeping durasteel marred by ash, soot, and the occasional piece of graffiti.

As they ascend to the second floor, Iskellia stops at one of the doors with a wave of palpable dread, trembling. Four piles of crushed metal are clustered along the wall and in the doorway, just barely recognizable as mercenary armor around crumpled and imploded skulls and skeletons. Karsa reacts too as she turns the corner to the hallway. “Oh, no…” she murmurs. “…The room. Her room.”

Iskellia sinks to her knees again in the doorway, and passing through, Callista can see the heart of the blaze, the site of her friend and Padawan’s fiery rebirth. The entire room is covered in blackened char and ash, from the shelf of ruined datacards to the ashen remains of stuffed animals to the heat-warped mirror above the half-collapsed dresser.

The center of the room is clear, but against one wall, tilted up as if thrown back against it, is a large durasteel bedframe with heavy oak reinforcements; two legs on one side are collapsed and broken. The space where the bed used to be is a stark negative space in the blackened grime of the fire damage. Most chillingly of all, on the edge of the bed’s footprint, is the negative-space outline of an arm and the vague imprint of what might have been half an upper body. Lying next to the bed is the blackened remains of an adult skeleton, twisted and warped by heat.

There is a dull thump as Iskellia collapses to her knees, removing her mask to let it fall into her lap. Her emotional aura is a dull, blank gray of shock as tears spill down her face, staring at the spot her life changed forever, and the fire-twisted skeleton next to it.

Karsa kneels down next to her, unable to maintain her Jedi composure as she lays her arms around Iskellia’s shoulders as the psion weeps.

Callista stares, looking around the room in quiet awe and horror. “They… no one ever even pulled the bodies out…?” she mutters almost under her breath in disbelief, tears streaming down her face even without sobs to accompany them.

“…Iskellia… I’m so sorry…” she says with a quiet sniffle. She steps up and kneels down on the psion’s other side from Karsa, and pulls her into a hug.

Rocking softly in place with Iskellia, she murmurs a faint sing-song with eyes closed.

“Shadows call out to be free,”
“Echoed things no one should see,”
“But never fear…”
“…Because you’re still here…”

“And though it feels like you might break,”
“The past is just a beast you make.”
“Grab the veil and tear away…”
“…So you can make anew today.”

“…But how…?” Iskellia croaks in her arms, her smoke-choked whisper just barely legible in Callista’s ear. “How do I …tear it away…when I’m drowning in it…?”

“By trusting in the Force,” Karsa reminds her softly, hugging them both. “Through the Force, all things are possible.”

Iskellia simply shudders. “It can’t bring Mom back…” she whispers. “It can’t turn back time…can it?”

Karsa shakes her head. “Not by any technique known to the Jedi,” she says, her voice gentle. “But if you turned back time, you would undo everything that has happened since…the good as well as the bad.”

“Shhh… there is no death, Iskellia,” Callista reminds her softly. “Remember all those talks we had… she’s been with you this whole time.”

“And she’s proud of what her daughter has accomplished, I’m sure,” Karsa adds quietly.

Iskellia sniffs and leans back, her mutilated visage giving Callista an emotional smile.

Then Iskellia’s frame convulses in Callista’s arms, and she starts to pull away with wordless urgency, but Karsa is right there, pressing her respirator back to her face. Iskellia repressurizes it with a gasp and a cough, nodding silent gratitude to the Nautolan Jedi as she secures it again.

“Thanks…” The scarred psion hiccups, sniffling again as she leans back in Callista’s arms, her eyes creasing with another smile. She shakes her head, wiping her eyes with another sniffle. [hHHh]…“Stupid…I don’t even know what I’m crying over…”

“It’s not stupid,” Callista squeezes her softly, brushing a thumb across her tear-stained cheek. “There’s nothing stupid about it. There is no death, but there is grief. Don’t ever apologize for being hurt by losing someone, and don’t ever, ever be afraid to cry. Part of mastering our emotions is knowing how to let them out.”

“It’s funny…” Iskellia sniffles with a teary smile at Callista. “When I first told Beryn about…[hHHh]…all this…back before I had joined the Order…and he was getting to know me and stuff…He actually taunted me a little, at the end of it. Told me if I hadn’t been such a freak, Mom’d still be alive.” She sniffs again. “Course, I reacted just how he expected…screamed at him, FWOOSHed him to the floor…**[hHHh]*…started crying. And he told me something his mother had told him.”

She swallows. "He said…‘Cry as much as you need, child…Don’t let anyone tell you to hold it in. But when you’ve cried until you can’t cry anymore…[hHHh]…never cry for the same reason twice.’ "

“He was right,” the blonde pats Iskellia’s back gently and leans away. “Let it all out… and then let it go.”

Iskellia wipes her eyes again and nods, pulling back herself before standing up again. She looks around the blackened room, then moves to the center of the charred blaze, where the flash-burned ghostly imprint of her body is still seared into the floor. Iskellia kneels down, pulling back her left sleeve to reveal her horribly burned and disfigured arm, before placing it in the impression – then shivers with the confirmation that it still fits her.

She kneels down next to the twisted, fire-blackened bones, her aura still heavy with grief, and gently brushes her fingers over the skull. Her shoulders heave with a sob, deep sorrow beyond tears. “Mom…”

“We’ll find a place to bury her properly,” Karsa promises quietly.
The Nautolan Jedi steps over and rests her hand on Iskellia’s shoulder. “But before we do…you did come here to search for lightsaber materials,” she reminds the Padawan gently.

Iskellia’s mask snuffles. “Yeah.”

“Let the Force guide you,” Karsa says quietly. She steps around in front of Iskellia and gently takes the psion’s mismatched hands in her own. “Hold out your hands…and describe what you see your lightsaber to be. What you feel in your hand.”

Iskellia’s eyes drift closed, and she remains silent for a long moment.

“What will make you strong in battle, and humble in retreat?” Karsa prompts quietly. “What will connect with your Force, your spirit? Concentrate…”

“Just like I showed you, Isk…” Callista adds with a nod.

“Determination,” Iskellia murmurs, thinking. “I’m not someone who …[hHhh]…likes giving up or submitting.”

“Good,” Karsa nods. “What else?”

“I put on a tough face for the galaxy…learned that on Nar Shaddaa…[hHh]… But I’m not just the Alderaan princess underneath, either. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, right…?”

“The crystal is the heart of the Blade,” Karsa quotes softly. “The heart is the crystal of the Jedi. You’ve found your core: Perseverance.”

“Unbreakable, our first Master called me.” Iskellia smiles slightly under her mask. Her hand curls, gripping something invisible. “Something…natural. Wood, or leather, or cloth…but something solid, underneath.”

“Unbreakable, hmmm…?” Karsa shakes her head. “There are few materials in the galaxy that can resist a lightsaber’s cut, and none are truly unbreakable. But for the rest, natural, wood or leather or cloth…yes, I think we can find you something …”

Karsa stands up, looking around the burnt-out husk of Iskellia’s bedroom. “Probably not here, though,” she adds.

Iskellia rises to her feet, opening her eyes. “Oh, I dunno…You just have to look.”

She crosses over to the scorched shell of her dresser, opening the large doors and sorting through it. “Looks like…A lot of this stuff was shielded from the fire… Chinar wood is tough stuff. Sensitive to sunlight, though…”

The faint scent of ash and mildew wafts up from the contents, mixed with the faint scent of fire and spice, and Iskellia sighs sadly, murmuring to herself. “Ohhh…I remember this dress. …I wore it to the Unification Banquet. Must’ve been…[hHH] Eleven? Twelve? Just a few months before the fire…”

A long, dark gray preteen-sized dress with forest-green accents floats out of the dresser briefly. Half its fabric is eaten away, but emeralds still glimmer in silver embroidery around the neckline, and in a necklace that connects the front up to the wearer’s throat. Iskellia stares at it, reminiscing. “That’s the thing about Great House events…refusing to dance can be seen as a…[hHHh] diplomatic snub between Houses, even minor ones like us…So while I hated the rules and etiquette…nobody was allowed to refuse to dance…[hHH] …for fear of getting their parents in diplomatic trouble.”

She smiles wistfully, sadly, under her mask. “…Selden Antilles. Tall, strong arms…He said he liked how the gems brought out my eyes. …[hHHh]… Danced with him three times that night.” She brushes her hand against the jewelry wistfully. “…'s funny. I’d completely forgotten his name until now.”

“I remember that ball,” Karsa says quietly. “I helped organize it; it was to celebrate an alliance between Antilles, Ulgo and Thul. …That alliance still technically exists today.”

She sighs, looking at the dress. “I don’t remember seeing you there, but…Your father Kandor certainly was. Then again, I was paying more attention to the Heads of Houses, not their children.”

Callista lifts a hand towards the dress, particularly the necklace. She focuses a little, and the tiny metal prongs holding one of the emeralds in place pry back, lifting the gemstone free. She takes it and places it in Iskellia’s hand. “To bring out your eyes… and help you remember what others have seen in you.”

Iskellia’s emerald eyes widen, staring at the floating emerald in amazement before looking to Callista with a filtered sniffle of emotion. The synesthetic Jedi can see bittersweet sentiment and gratitude coloring the emotional cloud around Iskellia as she gives a masked smile to Callista. “…Thanks~.” she says quietly, pocketing the gem.

“Perhaps the rest of the fabric can become a handwrap?” Karsa suggests gently.

Looking at her old dress, Iskellia nods. “Yeah…I’ll figure out some kinda use for it…” She gestures, and the remains of the dress and necklace carefully fold up into a small bundle, which she carefully stows in her satchel.

“For that matter…How about this chinar-wood?” Iskellia leans back, looking thoughtfully at the dark, solid wood of the dresser itself. “If you’re looking for a…[khHhh]… material that speaks to Perseverance…This stuff survived the same thing I did.”

“I thought we wanted to stay away from things relating to that,” Karsa reminds her.

“I know that,” Iskellia gives a filtered sigh. “But my dresser wasn’t just part of that; it was something I used every day, y’know? …[hHH]…Held not just fire and death, but…Parties, dances…daily life…” She leans in again, rooting through the contents.

“I mean, yeah…a lot of this stuff is charred or mildewed away…” A rasping sigh. “Junk…Junk…Junk…Wow, I wore a LOT of black. …[khHHh]…Not the Big Dark Intimidating Stuff, that was later…I think I was trying to …[hHHh]…fade into the background and not be noticed…”

Another small sigh. “Oh, these…Mom always kept trying to get me to wear lighter stuff…” She leans back briefly and pulls out a long, flowing dress of white with golden embroidery, now tarnished and stained to a muddy gray. Next to it, a clear sky-blue tabard over a simple white tunic and skirt, equally tarnished by age. She gives a rasping chuckle. “Can you imagine me in this stuff? Ohh, I hated it back then…”

“I think you’d look just fine,” Callista offers with a smirk. “But I mean if you don’t want it, I might steal the design ideas…”

Iskellia looks over the garments, her emotional aura flickering with bittersweet nostalgia. Then she sighs and shrugs, telekinetically folding them up again and floating them over to Callista. “Might do the same myself, later…but…[hHhh]…Sure, go for it…”

She shakes her head and looks into the dresser for another few moments, pulling out a small jewelry box and looking into it with another quiet sigh, before slipping it into her satchel.

“You may want to limit yourself in what you take,” Karsa says quietly. “Not only are you limited in what you can carry, but…The past is not something the Jedi dwell on greatly. Our pasts inform us, and our memories help define who we are, but…Jedi should not wallow in sentiment, unable to move on.”

“W…WALLOW in SENTIMENT?!” Iskellia snaps at her, her emerald gaze flaring in sudden anger. She stands up, glaring. “You fucking DARE to say that to me, HERE? In this place?!” She gestures around them, at her mother’s skeleton on the floor and the epicenter of the fiery inferno that burned her life to ash. “I’m…[hHHh]…probably never going to be back here again after this! I’M TRYING to move on!!”

Callista’s Force-synesthesic vision can see pulses, flickers and small waves of emotion-fueled telekinetic force reverberating from her, vibrating the ashen rubble heaps around them. Angry tears spill out of her sunken sockets, running down the outside of her respirator that heaves and hisses as her narrow frame heaves with emotion. “That’s…[hH-hHHh]…That’s the whole reason I’m here, is to…[sob]… put this to rest, put it behind me!!”

Karsa simply looks at her, remaining silent, letting her vent.

“Most of you serene-ass Temple Jedi never even got to HAVE a childhood!” Iskellia shouts at the diplomatic Consular. Her raspy voice shifts with her sheer exertion, momentarily breaking through the quiet wheeze that she normally adopts to spare her ravaged throat. For a brief moment, her voice is lighter, huskier, still tinged with smoky breathlessness but close in timbre to her ‘true’ voice, the purer tones Callista has ‘heard’ when speaking telepathically with her Padawan. "Well, I DID!!"

“I didn’t have friends, but [hHhh] I had a Mom and a Dad, I had a home, I had, I had…” She gestures emphatically around the room as she rants. “I had books and a favorite dinner and [hHhh] solving puzzles with Mom by the fireplace and playing with my toys in the snow and [hHhh] manners lessons and concerts in the city and…[hHhh]…and…”

Tears rush down her face and over her mask as she coughs, her voice shifting from her husky shouts of anger back down into her rough, smoky rasp of anguish as she continues relentlessly, “…and…and all the [hHhh] million million little pieces of life and happiness that burned to ashes right here in this room and, [hHhh] and…[hHhh]…”

She slumps down to her knees, now openly sobbing. "…And all that’s left are the ghosts [hHhh] and skeletons [hHhh] and my memories of them [hHhh] and it’s…it’s…it’s all I have left…!"

There’s a long few moments where Callista remains silent, her heart aching for her friend and Padawan. She exchanges glances with Karsa more than once during this time, until finally she pulls Iskellia once more into an embrace…

…and she hums. That same incomplete, half-remembered melody that Iskellia’s own memories dredged up from the halcyon days of her youth, now in the hushed, breathy tones of her young master, almost quiet as a whisper.

Callista holds her and rocks gently for a little while, perhaps not sure what else to do or say or offer the poor, tragedy-stricken woman… but as she does so, Iskellia finds some of those same happier memories rushing back, mixed in with little, possibly unintentional snippets of Callista’s own. Still images, but coupled with vivid sensation and sound.

“…Sometimes, Isk…” she starts gently, speaking softly into her Padawan’s ear. “…Sometimes… the memories are enough. Because they have to be… and… because without them… none of the rest of it means anything.”

Iskellia snuffles and sniffs in her arms, throat still raw, but the brunt of her rage and grief deflected by the rush of happier memories from the little melody. Her thin frame trembles in Callista’s embrace. “…doesn’t mean anything…?” she echoes thickly in confusion.

Karsa kneels down next to them, gingerly stroking Iskellia’s back in a sign of support. “Our memories are what give our love for our worlds context. And our love is what helps create those memories. The two are linked,” she says softly. “As Jedi, we are forbidden attachments such as romantic love, but…It is impossible to be a Jedi without a love for life itself, for that love is what gives us drive to protect others.”

Iskellia simply shudders wordlessly, squeezing Callista once more in embrace. She remains in that tight hug for a moment longer, then leans back, nodding her tearstained thanks.

“I see now why your life and childhood was so passionate and traumatic,” Karsa continues quietly. “That raw power leaks and flows out of you in your rage and fear and grief. Even now, after you’ve had training to control it, it’s still formidable…I don’t like to imagine what it must have been like in its raw form.”

“Gh…kh-Heh…[snnhHh]…” Iskellia sniffles, looking to her. Her raw croak turns wry, trying to wring some sort of joke out of tragedy. “You should’ve seen my temper tantrums when I was like 3 or 4…[snHHhh]… when they told me No Ice Cream…”

Karsa smiles a bit at that for a moment. “So much passion…And yet you’re still making quips and jokes all the time.”

“It’s a defense,” Iskellia admits with a quiet sigh. “I was never the practical joker or class clown. …I’m used to people being …frightened of my…[hHh] …face or my abilities. Jokes are the main way I have to try to put someone at ease around me. I’d rather be…[khHHhh…]…laughed at than feared… And when someone gets too close for comfort…a joke’s a good deflect, too…”

Finally, separates from Callista’s embrace again, snuffling again as she gives a masked smile to her mentor. “I didn’t know you knew Mirrorbright.”

“…I don’t.” Callista looks back at her with a bittersweet half-smile. “But you do.”

“…Hnh?” Iskellia makes a confused noise, blinking at her.

“I heard it from you.”

“I…how?” She furrows her brow.

"From in here," Callista reaches up and softly taps Iskellia’s forehead with a finger.

Iskellia rocks back gently at that touch, giving her mentor a tearstained masked smile. “Of course. …[sniff]…Shoulda guessed.”

She rises to her feet again, and the others stand up too. “…Sorry for…Falling to pieces here. …Again. …I just…” she sniffles, looking around the blasted and charred room. “…Lotta memories here in this room…this house…”

“It’s understandable,” Karsa assures her quietly, and looks back towards the dresser. “Between that dress with its gems, and the chinar-wood dresser, I think you have the makings of some good materials,” she remarks, trying to bring the tragic young woman back on track.

“Yeah…” Iskellia sniffs, pulling herself together again. “Yeah, you’re right. Can you get the door off?”

The snap-hiss of Karsa’s emerald lightsaber answers that question, and with tender delicacy, she removes one of the dresser doors as Iskellia looks on.

Callista gives a quiet smile and a nod, standing up from Iskellia and moving to walk about the room, peering over the ruins and remains.

Over by the thrown-back frame of the bed, scattered to one side is a tumbled bedside nightstand table. The lower half and side of it facing the epicenter of the room are charred to blackness and rotted wood. However, as she pulls it back with a tinkle of broken glass, she sees a scattering of broken and powered-down holographic frames and displays…but she also catches sight of a flash of color.

Next to the broken holo-frames are what seems to be a handful – no more than three – of actual physical, analogue photographs in rich golden frames.

The first image displays a stern-looking middle-aged man with dark hair in a sharp widow’s peak, high sharp cheekbones and piercing blue eyes. His severe-looking face bears a small affectionate smile, however, as he sits on an outdoor bench of some sort, his arm around the woman next to him. Her hair is solid inky black, falling past her shoulders in razor-straight lines, and her stunning emerald-green eyes are suffused in a wide, loving grin as she looks back at her husband. The two of them wear expensive clothing, and snow decorates the trees behind them. Clearly Iskellia’s parents, and they both appear surprisingly young – no older than their mid-30s at most. Scribbled on the bottom: Kandor and Alma Sarken.

In stark contrast to the moment of affectionate love of the first picture, the second picture is a much more rigidly posed affair, a Family Portrait™. Kandor’s face is set seriously, not a flicker of a smile to be seen as he wears a formal tunic of blacks and grays with subtle green accents, standing in the back of his family with an ornate coat of arms behind him. Alma’s dress emphasizes the green much more than the black – a softer, lighter shade of it, closer to the green of a leaf. In front of both of them in the foreground, though, stands a little girl perhaps 5 or 6 years old. Big, soulful green eyes stare out at the camera, a huge long waterfall of inky-black hair descending past her waist, pulled back and showing the same prominent widow’s peak as Kandor. Young Iskellia appears unsure of the whole event, standing closer to Alma than Kandor, one arm reaching up and rubbing the back of her neck in childlike hesitancy.

The final picture is of a stunning landscape in the background, the soaring snowcapped mountains of Alderaan above the rolling green fields. A clear blue river winds its way from the corner of the frame, plunging off into a waterfall. Standing by the river, a 7-year-old Iskellia and her mother Alma – Alma wearing a pleasant mid-dress of cream and blue, and Iskellia in a slimming tunic of white and soft yellow – are holding hands, looking off into the distance somewhere behind the camera’s perspective, a small stuffed thranta doll trailing from Iskellia’s free hand. Both are smiling happily at something, not visible in the frame.

Callista smiles softly, and lifts the final picture, moving over towards Iskellia. “Hey - do you want to bring any of these back?”

Iskellia’s eyes widen, her breath audibly hitching in astonishment. “I…oh holy hells, YES…!!” She draws closer, looking fondly at the picture and tracing it with her finger. “Oh, Mom…”

Her breath shudders audibly, but she takes a deeper breath, refusing to fall apart again. “…I don’t even know what we were doing in this one, but…Wow, I’d forgotten how long my hair was…”

“I wish I had hair that long,” Callista mutters. “Come on, let’s see if we can find more things to salvage, hm?”
Iskellia nods, looking over to the fallen bedside table. “Did you find anything else over there? Any other pictures?”

“Yeah, there’s a few more there,” Callista nods, moving around the room and poking through things elsewhere. “Check 'em out!”

Iskellia moves over to the rubble eagerly, telekinetically pulling aside the destroyed nightstand. She crouches down, gathering up the two remaining photographs and staring at them forlornly.

“…Yeah…that about sums Dad up, all right,” she gives a filtered sigh. “Weird to see him smiling in this other one, though…”

She crouches down and gathers up the remaining broken holograph discs too. “Just in case…maybe a slicer can recover them…”

Sliding them into her satchel, Iskellia looks around the shattered remains of her room, then moves over and helps Callista poke through the rubble. Sifting through, they encounter charred heaps of ash, twisted metal chunks that used to be technology… So much of the rubble is not only charred to ash and soot, but overgrown with vines that have grown up in the past decade as well. In one alcove that might have been a closet, Callista even thinks she spots a charred husk that might have been the stuffed Thranta doll that young Iskellia was clutching in the picture.

Callista’s synaesthetic senses can see rippling shimmers of muted emotion all around her masked Padawan as they poke through. Regret, wistfulness, sadness, melancholy…Occasional flickers of hope as she opens some old drawer half-remembered to contain treasures, only to collapse into disappointment at finding nothing but ash and dirt within.

Excitement briefly dawns when Iskellia thinks she’s found an old cluster of datapads in a drawer, but none of them can be powered on anymore. She slips them into her satchel anyway, just in case they can be someday recovered.

In the end, though, Iskellia returns to the center of the room again, looking around forlornly, then down at her mother’s bones with a deep, filtered hissing sigh. “You really can’t ever go home again, huh…?”

“What do you mean?” Karsa asks.

Iskellia heaves another sigh. " [PHHHhhhhfff…] “…It’s…strange. Being back here again. I’m all…[hHh]…mixed up.”

She gestures around. “All…all this. It’s…fun, in a way, digging through here. Finding bits and pieces of my old life. Remembering a stuffed animal here, a photograph there, an old Life Day present here…[hHHh]…But I can’t take it all with me. …Don’t even want to, either. A lot of these are memories…happy memories, sad memories…but still just memories. I…[hHHHh] I…Even if I COULD take everything…Looking over all this destruction and damage…It makes me realize something: It’s just Stuff.”

Interest and growing approval light Karsa’s features as she listens to Iskellia thinking out loud.

“Happy stuff, yes…beloved stuff, once upon a time. But this stuff, most of it…The object itself is just a pile of ash, vaguely shaped like something I remember that I used to love. [hHHh] I don’t need my old thranta plushie to remember carrying it around the house.” She telekinetically summons a moisture-sodden bundle of rags with a few straps hanging off. “I don’t need to physically hold my old bookbag to remember school.”

“So what does that mean for you?” Karsa asks.

“It’s not like I’m saying Fuck It, Leave Everything…” Iskellia pauses, gripping the strap of her satchel with her chosen treasures. “This stuff, the dresser door…these are things that are important to me, not just because it’s a happy memory, but…[hHHh] because it has meaning beyond just…A Happy Thing. It’s something that speaks more to who I am. Right? And…[hHHhh] I’ve got a few other things here, too…family pictures, to remember the love I had forgotten…the old jewels, to remember I have worth beyond just the tragedies that happened…”

Iskellia sniffles again with emotion, but doesn’t break down this time. “And I’m a Jedi now, too. …[hHhh]…No attachments, right? …If I keep rooting through all this…I’m sure I’ll find…old treasures, sentimental things…a collection of neat seashells Mom and I picked up one time…Lots of bits and bobs and Stuff. Attachments, in other words… [kHHh]… I feel like taking too much Stuff, would just…weigh me down, almost. Not just physically, but…I also can’t just cling to all this…all my ghosts, all the past.”

“As in, I literally can’t.” She shakes her head, looking around. “Like…Playing this out here, thought experiment…Even if I, like…quit the Jedi, hung up my blaster, [hHHh] moved back to Alderaan, retired, salvaged everything, rebuilt the old mansion as it was…in other words, if I do everything possible in my power to…[khHhh] make everything the way it was again, to return to that past and that wonderful childhood…[hHHh] …I would still bear my scars… my mask. …Mom would still be gone. …And the creepy psychic murder-ghost of Iskellia Sarken would still haunt these ruins.” She wiggles her fingers in a I’m-so-scary motion and shakes her head again. “No matter how many things I take with me, or rebuild or preserve…Nothing can bring it all back. And I’m just sorta…realizing that. Grappling with that.”

“Sometimes it takes facing something directly to realize it was even there…” Callista nods. “So what do you say we just pick one or two things, and then just… let the rest be dust in the wind? A life you once had, but not the one you have now. Remembered, but passed on.”

“I…I suppose. Yeah.” Iskellia looks down at one of the photographs, of her and her mother. “…I want to try to revisit this waterfall in Juranno, though…One of the rocks from that river would be nice, a piece of…[hHh] happiness, not just fire and death.”

“…Would one of the rocks here work?” Karsa asks gently.

Iskellia shakes her head stubbornly. “Nope. Not just fire and death, remember? …Besides…” She looks to Callista. “I want to show you something pretty and happy for once.”

Callista smiles softly. “Let’s go, then. Maybe we can take a Thranta there…?”

“Ooh! Yeah!” Iskellia brightens up at that idea. “That was the other thing, I’d LOVE to take you on a Thranta ride!”

Karsa chuckles softly, rising to her feet again. “Very well, then…”

“…But before we do…” Iskellia crosses over to her mother’s skeleton and makes a lifting motion, carefully levitating all the bones together with infinite gentle tenderness. “…Mom’s been lying here long enough…”

“Of course.” Karsa says quietly. Looking around the room, shakes her head regretfully. “…I wish I had been faster, that night,” she says quietly. “Of course, the fire had already spread by the time I had noticed it, but…”

“It wouldn’t have changed anything,” Iskellia says just as quietly. [khHHh] “You would have saved me a few minutes more of pain…But the damage… was already done. …My face. My… flesh. …Mom….”

“I know,” Karsa murmurs. Raising her hands, she levitates the bed from where it was flung against the wall, back into its original position. It sags on one side, its edge pinning down right on top of where Iskellia’s body had been. Iskellia still shudders as she looks at that death trap.

“Anything else here?” Karsa asks gently. “Not just your room, but…your parents, or something else in the house…?”

Iskellia lowers her head in thought, looking around the room one last time.

“There’s…something…” she mutters aloud, looking around, the idea on the tip of her tongue. She crosses over to her dresser one last time, hanging open with one door neatly sliced off by Karsa and carried under the Nautolan’s arm. Iskellia opens up a small drawer near the top that she neglected the first time around.

Poking her head over Iskellia’s shoulder, Callista can see that it appears to be a small jewelry and accessory drawer. Iskellia’s shoulders slump slightly with a wave of bittersweet emotion as she looks over a sparkling array of precious metals, silver, gold, pearl, gemstones…A glittering prize liable to fetch a handsome sum on any market. Iskellia, however, digs through them with the casual familiarity of wealth. After a few moments, her eyes light up and she pulls out a pair of small pieces of jewelry – what look like hair ties or bands of delicate black silk, woven with a hair-width braid of silver that winds its way along the silken band, spreading out into natural branches that sprout ‘fruits’ of pearls and ‘leaves’ of emeralds.

“Here, I…I want you to have something.” Iskellia holds it out towards Callista, almost embarrassed to display such wealth. “I…[hHhh] was given these to wear to royal High House functions and banquets…[khH] Hair ties, originally. …Life Day present, I think. …Back when I…y’know. …had hair…” She rubs her bald-scarred skull self-consciously, almost ashamedly. “…Not going to be needing these again, that’s for sure…”

“I…I feel a little bad dragging you all over the planet here…dealing with…all my old demons, putting my past to rest – most of it, anyway…[hHH] …And this all…really, really means a lot to me. …More than I can really put into words.” Iskellia’s big soulful green eyes look into Callista’s gaze. “I…I know you wear your necklace choker there…[hhHH] to let you hide your scars. I don’t know if your current one you’re wearing…has a special significance to it, for you. Maybe it does. …[hHH]…But…I wanna give you my own special one, too. As a thank-you.”

“Isk, I… thank you,” Callista looks down at the jeweled band and accepts it gently, looking it over. “It’s beautiful. I’ll take good care of it, I promise.”

Smiling up to her Padawan, the blonde Knight shakes her head. “But don’t feel bad for me coming out here with you, that was the point. You and me, doing something together as teacher and student. And… as friends.”

“As…friends.” Iskellia echoes, her eyes creasing as she offers one of her masked smiles, nodding in return.

She turns and looks back into the jewelry drawer, pausing. Then she reaches in and pulls out an identical twin to the hair-band tie she gave to Callista, as well as a shorter hair-pin, equally festooned in silver and emerald. She looks at them a moment with a reflective sigh. [KhFFFffff…] “…Maybe someday, if I ever have hair again…” She slips the jewelry into her bag.

With another hissing sigh, Iskellia forces herself to step back. “…That’s probably enough. Mementos, not…bling. Heh.”

“What will you do with the rest of it?” Karsa asks.

Iskellia shakes her head. “…All of this has sat here for the past ten years. …[hHh] …Never scavenged or looted. Guess my ghost is keeping all the looters away, heh…I think I’ll let it just stay here.”

“Not even donating it?” The Nautolan Knight tilts her head.

Iskellia shakes her head. “I don’t need it anymore…But it feels kinda mercenary to just…ruthlessly sell off a bunch of family heirlooms, personal treasures and things…”

“Let ashes be ashes,” Karsa echoes.

“We can have someone come out and scavenge through for salvageable things to donate,” Callista suggests. “But for now… let’s go. Hm?”

“…Yeah. …Yeah, okay.” Iskellia pauses, looking around one last time with a deep sigh. Then she makes a gesture, carefully levitating her mother’s bones up with her. She looks around the room, then to the sturdy chinarwood dresser. One of the lower drawers holds nothing but sodden rags – the mildew must have gotten in sometime in the past decade. Iskellia dumps them out, then takes one of the few intact towels and lines the bottom, before gently placing Alma’s bones within the makeshift casket.

As the three of them walk out, Karsa pauses, looking down at the crumpled bodies in the corridor. “…What about them? The soldiers?”

Iskellia pauses, looking down at them for a moment. “…I don’t feel any particular urge to do anything with them anymore,” she answers. [hHHh…] “They killed my Mom. They’re the ones who directly started the fire …[hHH] …burned my life down. …Bury them if you really want. …I don’t care. I’m dealing with Mom.”

Karsa nods quietly and follows Iskellia out.



After securing Alma Sarken’s remains within the chinar-wood casket, Iskellia brings it out to the speeder with them. She looks one last time around the house and sighs regretfully before lifting a hand and levitating the shattered front door back into the doorframe, sealing the House of Ashes once more.

The three of them pile into the speeder with the box, and after Karsa gives it some directions, the droid driver brings them back toward Aldera, but stops short a mile or two short, and turns down a different road to get to an outdoor compound with several tents set up. An array of large nests are arrayed on a platform, and each one has a large, winged creature hovering above it with a saddle on its back, flapping its wings in long, lazy gestures to float and bob in the air: A Thranta.

“Woah, look at it…!” Callista marvels. “And you guys ride these around??”

“For thousands of years, basically,” Karsa nods. “They’re Alderaan’s oldest form of transportation, but they still work, and they’re cheaper than speeders and pilot droids. Less capacity, but they’re considered a part of Alderaan’s heritage at this point.”

Iskellia steps up, stroking the thranta’s snout. It sniffs at her curiously, smelling the faint acrid tinge of kolto from her mask, but more curious if she has any kind of food. “They’re pretty tame,” she rasps affectionately. “…Mostly herbivores… [hHHh] Used to have a plushie of one of these guys…”

Karsa nods to the caretaker droid after handing it a few credit bars, then steps up and confidently pats the Thranta’s head. It stops flapping and allows itself to gently sink to the nest pad, letting the three passengers climb aboard the toughened leather saddle on the back sprouting with ample handholds. A small console also pokes up from the saddle, showing a real-time global map that the pilot can use to navigate. Karsa gestures at the front saddle with a smile. “Iskellia? You know where we’re going…”

Iskellia nods to that, stepping up to take the reins. Callista, though, is still up by the Thranta’s head, stroking its snout. “Can I feed it?” She asks impulsively.

Karsa chuckles, looking around its nest before finding a large feeding trough on one side, still with several large bundles of flowers and greens in it. She hands a bundle to Callista, and as Callista takes it, the Thranta’s large head instantly pivots towards her, snuffling insistently. “Oh, hi! You want a snack, big guy? Huh?” Callista laughs, holding up the bundle of greens as the Thranta’s wide mouth and soft lips nuzzle around her hands before finding its target. A large, thick tongue lolls out of its mouth, scooping the food in before chewing contentedly as the blonde Jedi chuckles.

With that completed, the three Jedi then climb aboard the Thranta as Iskellia digs her heels into the side of its neck gently. The thranta shakes itself, yawning, before launching itself into air! Callista and Karsa hold onto the safety grips as the creature’s massive wings lift them all up, pushing them into the air in an unhurried way, its slow flaps belying the rapid actual speed at which it flies. The gorgeous landscape of Alderaan unfolds below them majestically, snow-frosted trees lining green paths at the foothills of regal mountains.



The town of Juranno appears small from the air, more signature Alderaani architecture of round buildings, spires, and sprawling walls. Iskellia guides the creature to the south of the town, though, angling their flight path up higher into the mountains. The old Sarken estate soon can be spotted ahead of them, wide promenades heaped with snowfall, though curiously not as much as one would expect from a decade of neglect.

The rushing wind makes Iskellia’s hissing sigh hard to hear, but Karsa and Callista don’t find it too hard to imagine what’s going through her mind.

“Must be new owners,” Karsa comments, looking down on it as they fly over. “Not enough damage to be 10 years of neglect. I’m afraid I’m not familiar with them…Possibly it was taken over by one of the nearby Houses, like Alde.”

Iskellia shakes her head sadly, then turns the Thranta away. She guides them instead, to a higher mountain plateau a mile or two from the estate, setting the Thranta down in a large, grassy meadow with a river running through it. A gorgeous, sweeping view of the Juranno mountain range spans before them, and as she looks around, Callista recognizes the vista from the picture of Iskellia and her mother Alma.

Iskellia steps off the Thranta, then moves over to the bank of the riverside. For a minute, she simply looks around the stunning vista, taking in the view with a smile under her mask, her mood lightening in Callista’s gaze. She reaches up and disengages her mask, depressurizing it with a hiss before retracting its straps and pulling it away. With her ruined face revealed, Iskellia just closes her eyes and takes as deep of a breath as she can with her limited lung capacity. Relishing the feel of the breeze on her face, the smell of the air.

“This place is beautiful,” Callista says softly, smiling at her friend. Iskellia opens her eyes and looks back at her, her ravaged features twisting into a smile. “It is…” she croaks in return in her raw, unamplified wheeze. “I would come here…just to be alone with my thoughts. …Just to look at the mountains… listen to the river…”

Moving slowly, almost in a dream, Iskellia sits down on the riverbank and stares into the flowing water. Her fractured and morphing reflection looks back at her, and she dips the fire-gnarled claw of her left hand into the stream as Callista sits beside her. “…Then… when Mom found me…” she croaks, her voice growing fainter and hoarser, but she fights through the pain to make her point. “… up here, one night before dinner… She started coming up here too. …It was our special little spot… just to talk, where I could talk about… whatever I went through that day. …And where she would try to explain… How and why the other kids acted like they did… Or talk me through a better way to approach things… Or sometimes I just gushed …about some holomovie we saw the other day. …heh…” She gives a wrenching cough and presses her mask to her face for a few more breaths before lowering it again.

Distantly, over to the side, there’s a snap-hiss of an emerald lightsaber igniting. Iskellia and Callista look over to see Karsa standing by a large rock, waving at them reassuringly.

Iskellia sighs, looking back down to the water. “I was…a pretty lonely kid…” she admits in her faint rasp. “I didn’t really understand the world around me a lot…But up here, with Mom…where I didn’t have to be the… Perfect Alderaanian Princess… around my father or around the estate…was where things made sense. …Where I was safe. … …”

“And do things make sense now, coming back here…?” Karsa asks quietly, sitting down on her other side.

Iskellia is silent for a long moment, staring at the water as if searching its depths for secrets. A cluster of smooth river stones rise out of the water, a half-dozen rocks and pebbles bobbing in the air and dripping down into the stream. The little collection of stones begins to juggle themselves, following Iskellia’s subtle finger-gestures, and the scarred psion gives a small smile.

“…No,” she admits after a long quiet pause. “…And yes. …Being up high, out here…looking at the mountains…always made me think a vast, cold sort of peace that comforted me. …But now…as an adult…I look at this view…and I still feel the faint echo of that certainty…but I also feel the vastness of the mountains themselves…and the stars above…and I think…GEH…!”

She gives a wrenching cough as she grabs for her respirator for a few more breaths, the rest of her sentence coming through at normal volume through her amplifier. “I think…maybe it’s not that my problems are smaller in the face of the mountains…[hHhh] Maybe it’s just that I was so small as a kid. …[khHhh] I didn’t have any conception of the scale of the galaxy…and what real problems look like…”

“Your perspective will continue to change as you grow older,” Karsa says quietly. “There’s never an age where you reach it and say ‘aha, I know everything now’. …It’s true for even the wisest Jedi, not just in life, but in the Force. In both, actually, because the Force is life, and life is the Force.”

The Nautolan Consular gestures, and the cluster of floating rocks group in on themselves and levitate over to the three Jedi. Iskellia looks down as they drop into her lap, rubbing one thoughtfully. “…A reminder,” she rasps quietly, looking at the smooth river stone in her hands. “…of the importance of taking a moment for peace, in the middle of all of life’s stresses…”

“…A reminder,” Karsa rejoins gently, “that you will never stop changing and gaining in wisdom and understanding. …A reminder that your problems may feel as mighty as these mountains…but that they can be overcome through the patience and understanding that your mother showed you, here at this riverbank.”

“…and speaking of her…I think it’s time.” Karsa looks back towards the Thranta and gestures, and the box with Alma’s blackened bones hovers towards them from the rear seat of the saddle. Iskellia sniffles, re-engaging her mask, as she takes the box and opens it. One by one, with careful reverence and tenderness, the three Jedi take the bones and wash them in the river, cleaning the ash and soot away. With each of them working together through the Force, digging the grave is an easy telekinetic feat, certainly one small enough for the casket.

Iskellia removes her mask again, openly weeping as she looks down one last time on the cleaned skull, putting her head to its brow, its high cheekbones reflected uncannily in her own face. “I’m sorry, Mom…I’m sorry I couldn’t save you, back then…” she whispers. “I’m sorry I stayed away… for ten long years…I’m sorry for…so much. …So much that happened…so much I did…and so much more…” She swallows, her hoarse croak raw with emotion and grief. Callista and Karsa stand a few feet away, listening somberly but letting her have this moment.

The scarred psion gives a shaky smile through her tears. “But…But I’m a Jedi now, Mom…! Imagine that…! …I finally found people who can help me. …Like you tried so, so hard to do. … I promise you, Mom… I’m going to keep making you proud of me. …And I’m going to make sure that no child… no other little kid has to go through what I did… scared and alone and confused with my powers. …I’m going to make sure that I help teach and nurture… the gifts of other kids. Encourage them, like you tried to. …Showing others the same love you showed me, Mom. …” Her thin shoulders shake in a sob, pressing Alma’s skull to her brow again. “…I promise. …”

Even Karsa’s stoic Jedi demeanor can’t withstand the waves of grief pouring off Iskellia at this, and her large dark Nautolan eyes weep along with Callista’s grey gaze as Iskellia slowly kneels down and places her mother’s skull within the casket. After a moment, Iskellia reaches into her satchel and pulls out the old photograph of the young Alma and Kandor in love, smiling to each other. She looks at it for a long moment…then tilts her head as she notices a second edge along the first. With trembling fingers, she reaches into the picture frame…and pulls out a second copy of the photograph, pristine and un-hazed by smoke. Iskellia smiles at that, tenderly stroking Alma’s face one last time. Then she pulls out her vibroknife from her boot and carefully cuts out Alma’s half of the picture, placing it reverentially into the casket as well before sliding it shut.

She steps back, tears dripping into the earth, and bows her head. Karsa and Callista step up quietly on either side of her, flanking and comforting with their mere presence as the two senior Jedi raise their hands, levitating the earth back into place and filling in the grave.

“There is no emotion…There is peace,” Karsa begins softly as the grave fills.

“There is no ignorance…There is knowledge.”

“There is no passion… There is serenity.” Callista chimes in gently.

“There is no chaos… There is harmony.”

Iskellia’s thin shoulders shake in open sobs, but she doesn’t break down completely as she watches the casket vanish from view, then the clumps of earth telekinetically filling in. A large flat stone floats over with a gesture from Karsa, anchoring in the hole of the grave as it finishes filling in, serving as the headstone. On it, carved by lightsaber blade, is written:

ALMA GIRARD SARKEN

A faithful wife, a loving mother

Both Callista and Karsa look at each other and nod, and squeeze Iskellia’s shoulders. Swallowing her tears, Iskellia raises her head again. Her usual wheezing whisper is a measure to protect her damaged throat, but now she cares nothing for that as she finishes the recital, calling out in a loud voice to the setting sun, There is no death… There is the Force."

A palpable pulse of telekinetic force radiates out from Iskellia, fueled by grief, as a final exclamation note as she looks up to the setting sun painting gorgeous oranges and reds across the mountain skyline. Karsa and Callista stand quietly, weathering the pulse, as Iskellia’s thin frame shudders and trembles. Then, audibly swallowing, the psychic outpouring of grief and emotion ties off as Iskellia draws on her training, mastering her mental walls once again as she spreads her arms, hugging Callista and Karsa gratefully as she replaces her mask again.

“But…why…?” she rasps to them. “…She wasn’t a Jedi…”

“No, but she raised a fine one,” Karsa replies softly, squeezing Iskellia gently in the three-way embrace. “And now you feel the truth of what we’ve told you: That she has always been with you, and always has been proud of you.”

Iskellia snuffles at that, nodding. The other Jedi can still feel her trembling in grief and emotion, but Callista’s special eyes can see the notes of bittersweet satisfaction, closure and acknowledgement. “I do feel that now…yeah. …Thank you. …Callista. …Master Karsa. …Thank you both.”

The three Jedi squeeze in an embrace once again, then step back. Iskellia’s emerald eyes are red-rimmed from grief and tears, but she audibly swallows as she nods to them, looking back at her mother’s grave, right on the riverbank by the waterfall, overlooking the gorgeous sunsetting Juranno Mountains. Iskellia stares for a long, somber moment, burning the picture into her memory.

Finally, she sniffs one last time and turns away.

“…Come on.” Callista squeezes her friend and Padawan’s shoulder, gently pulling her towards the waiting Thranta. “…Let’s go home.”

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