I’ve decided to make notes of my experiences upon visiting Viscara. I’ve been fated with many strange occurrences in my life, however these past few weeks have proven beyond fruitful in my growth. I’ve joined a group of like minded individuals ( sorta) called the circle of Viscara. They are a group of force sensitive folk, neither Jedi or Sith… I say it’s rather convenient, I stumbled upon them here, in this vast Galaxy. I don’t agree with all their philosophy, but I just can’t help but respect them. I’ve agreed to follow their code. In return I’ve been accepted and have found a place and am growing in the force. I’ll admit their ways are vastly different from my life as a smuggler, but I feel like it’s growing on me a little.
I’ve been training with Nivoe, Sandra, Rone and even had a bit of training from a fella named Solomon. I’ve had to hold back my knowledge, so I don’t give up my facade. Id rather not deal with the drama of being known as a failed Padawan learner. It’s just easier this way… It’s also ideal to enter this new world with a clean slate… Though, today I trained with a Jedi woman, her Padawan and a few others… Can’t remember their names, but I’ll figure it out. She showed us a method of pushing dark side energy from our bodies. Called it a forge. It’s more of a visualization method, it was quite interesting… Anyways, during her teaching, she asked me to think of a goal and a purpose. I found it very difficult, because then I realized I didn’t really have a goal… I was also to build these bricks of purity? Built of fond memories or thoughts… I realized, that my memories aren’t exactly positive. I realized that it may not be possible to build these bricks, however the fire she spoke about I was able to create. Or at least visualize… That fire was peace… I’ve never had that, but if I could find that peace, maybe I could build those bricks too?.. I won’t know until I try… I’m looking forward to learning so much more, but for now I’ll rest and meditate on what I’ve learned…