The depth of the dark was the most frightening thing about the door. The tendrils lapped at them as they began going through and yet on the two walked, heedless of the darkness that stood before them. There was a calmness between the two, however and neither of them said anything as they walked, the darkness wrapping itself around his form. The storm began to form overhead and the rain began to beat against them. He guarded himself from the driving rain, and yet Abigael continue to hold his hand, pulling him forward a warmth from within the force. It was, perhaps, her hand that led him onwards, that warmth and familiarity.
She looked at him as he faltered a bit. “Come on Kairos. Remember Master Vandar’s words…trust in the force. There’s an important difference between sith and jedi, Kairos. I’m sure you’ve figured it out by now, but perhaps the most important difference between the jedi and the sith is that we all have stared into the abyss that is the force, but when the abyss stares back at us, when it shows us what and who we really are, the sith blink and turn away. Those that follow the dark side can rarely see the good within the world or even within themselves and so instead they focus on their anger, their rage, their pain, their sadness and their fear. They use that to pull from the force, instead of cooperating with the force to achieve their ends. What have you to fear from the dark side of the force, when the force is your ally this entire time?” Then her smile, her calming smile… “Come on. The path is still ahead and leads us onwards.” Once more she turned, feet not stopping, pulling him along.
Alongside her he marched, voices lashing out at him every so often, voices from his past, the voices of many different people. Yelling at him, screaming at him, asking things of him, demanding things of him, the dark swirled into a tempest around them. Even as he felt the concern creeping up on him, the doubt begin to swell in his mind, Abi squeezed his hand, pulling him forward through the abyss. The path ahead before them… it was… The something that he understood and remembered… A time when he and his mother had visited… a planet… in the core….what had it been called? Was… it Corellia… It was the place that she’d been born.
She had brought him ba… No… he’d been born here and had had a few years there… Why had they left? Why…had they lied to him? Everything that she’d been doing, she had done to protect him, right? Or…had she been protecting herself? Perhaps all of them? Did it really matter? The field… The field was just up ahead and that, he knew, was going to be the final point. That was the area where he would have to decide everything. Would he be consumed by his pain, his rage and his fear or would he finally move beyond them?
The field… Flowers. He stopped in the middle of the field and stared at the figure standing before them, the robes flapped…no. It was the dress she’d been wearing that day. She wasn’t smiling now, though.
“Marh,” he acknowledged. The woman’s smile seemed to slowly disappear.
“Kairos, you call me mother.” Her body seemed to tense.
“No, Marh, I have to get out from under your shadow. I’ve lived there for too long, wondering if you’d be proud of me, how you’d feel about what I’m doing. To the point that I was afraid of letting you go because if I did…then I’d let you down, somehow.” He released Abi’s hand. He knew that she couldn’t help with this. This was his fight to finish. The door had been opened and he couldn’t close it without going through this.
“…you have been poisoned by the Jedi, haven’t you?” She sighed. “I’m sorry, Kairos. I told you what would happen, were you to ever fall…” Suddenly a lightsaber ignited in her left hand. “For disobeying me, you will be punished. Then you will understand why the jedi are wrong. You must take what power you want.”
Kairos stepped forward. “You’re not Marh. She died years ago… At best you’re a ghost.” The storm kicked up again, wind whipping around the flowers, petals set dancing within the night, yet Kairos did not flinch or even move.
“You refuse to defend yourself? This will be easier than I thought!!” And suddenly she was upon him, swinging her blade. Raising an arm, Kairos created a small barrier on his hand, the saber clashing against it, and pushed her back. “You’ve grown in the force, Kairos! You’re foolish to isolate yourself like this, away from your friends, away from those who would support you!” She swung once more, Kairos raising his other hand as a shield formed and parried the saber a second time. “Who knows what might find you out in the darkness! I’ve been here from the beginning! Your curiosity is dangerous to you… You resist, you refuse…and yet already the scent of the dark marks your soul. You will never escape from it Kairos!!” The swings were a combination of juyo that he’d seen from Callista and then switching to djem so, while certainly aggressive and vicious, it left openings and neither were perfect. Yet all he did was stay on the defensive deflecting. “You defend yourself because you know, deep down, that I’m right. You don’t belong with the jedi. What have they done for you? Callista… she’s never around when you need her and often shows up too late to help! Puru? Look at her, she struts around like she owns the Temple after having been gone for months!! Qyilisc simply follows Puru and Althea?” She laughed. “Althea doesn’t care about the Temple OR the jedi for that matter! And Iskellia is always off planet helping in this war! With Abigael dead, Kairos, you are alone.”
He pushed her back and took a breath. “They’re busy, you’re right about that. But I’m not alone. The initiates, the other padawans, they are there as well. We’re a family. Not in the traditional sense, but we support each other when we stumble.”
The apparition scoffed, raising the saber. “Yes, Vilnia did a wonderful job of showing how tolerant and supportive she was! And Vriska did so much better. Then there’s Doma. You know its only a matter of time before her fall. She’ll go to them and there’s nothing you can do about it. Iliquen? Look how simple she is. Farming! Engineering! Thelion is so caught up in his books and the damn council that he’s more blind than ever before! And where is Kiekrys? She’s always gone too! As is Shax, your master, the one who’s supposed to teach you!! Look where that’s gotten you, Kairos! Three sith have attempted, and most likely at least one other wouldn’t mind trying his hand!”
He once more took a breath, around them the storm was beginning to abate. “I’ve been tempted, yes. I’ve wanted to, but have never fully taken the plunge. We’re not perfect. We never are going to be. We stumble. We fall. But in the end we help each other, we support each other. Even for the pain he caused me, I support Dominic as best as I can!”
Once more she swung at him, but this time, he seemed to have had enough, shield flaring into life again, crashing and gliding down along the saber, before suddenly he grabbed the ghost’s hand with his own. Marh screamed, the form seemed to shift and warp before finally shattering and revealing only himself as a child, tears streaming down his face as the lightsaber fell from his hands.
“Y…it’s not fair!! We…we loved mom and some kriffing meteor takes her away from us?! And then the dark jedi came and took Abi and YOU KNOW THAT IT WAS HIM!!!” Kairos nodded, and knelt down to his childhood self as tears well up in his eyes.
“…I know… And it hurts, Kai, and it’s going to… But, we’re going to have to work through that. It’ll be tough, but we have our friends… We have all of them… Ca jor, Ali’shari, the other jedi… And through them, our meditations. It’ll get better…Kairos. You need to believe me on that… Cuz I’m you and I know…”
“B-But… Power… Isn’t that how people protect…others? Why…why is the jedi way what you think is right? We’ve lost so many people because of them!!!”
Kairos held his smaller self. “…no… The people that we’ve lost have all sacrificed themselves for us, whether so we could live or so that we could accomplish something important. You know that. Mom protected us… We tried for Abigael, but you can’t always save everyone… and you know that… C’mon… It’s time for us to go…” He smiled to the smaller him, who sniffled but smiled and nodded, walking into him as the two halves finally merged. He took a breath, before turning to Abi, who was smiling as he approached.
“…So what now?” he asked, though he knew the answer.
“Now, you need to let me go… You need to move on with your life… It will still hurt, there will always be that pain, you’ll never get rid of it, but you can at least let me go, not live in the past and forge your new future. I’m sure you’ll be a night soon, after all…” Abi said with a smile.
“…they’re going to find who did this to you and bring them to trial… They will not escape justice, not this time… Though I’m not going with them. I don’t have such a right to.” He walked up to her and hugged her once. “…goodbye, Abigael. I loved you for what time I had you…” She smiles to him, slowly fading away as the storm and darkness dissipated leaving only a golden field around him. Then he woke up.
Tears stained the ship in front of him but… the alarm was going off? That couldn’t be… He focused on the area around him. Darkness… It had just entered his part of space! He ran to the cockpit starting up the ship immediately. The moment that he did the comms channel opened.
“…I know this feeling. Jedi… Surrender. Throw yourself upon the mercy of Malak and you might be spared and shown how strong the force can truly be.”
He flicked a few more switches as the hyperdrive had already begun calculating. “That’s my line, pal. If you give yourself up now and come back with me, then you might get off easy. I’d rather not have this fight, if I were you!”
The inquisitor went into the attack, blasting his ship into range as Kairos moved around, moving his ship faster. Yet, despite his ship’s movement, the inquisitor’s was faster, Kai just happened to be the better pilot in a dumpier ship. He was going to have to make sure that he got this fixed once he got out of this… if… The inquisitor’s ship was right behind him and no matter what he did there was no way to shake him… He’d tried reaching Ali’shari, Ca Jor and even Thess, but no one was able to hear him well. The hard hit he took shook the ship, it hadn’t done major damage but he needed to get out fast…
That was when he had an idea. He fired one of his flares, something normally used to signal and dropped down and hit the breaks. His own ship started to flash another warning. A larger ship, not Republic… He had to get back into republic space. His viewing screen went dark as the flare went off. Engines ignited and he opened fire on the sith’s ship, punching through the shields and damaging his engines. Not wasting a beat, he turned his ship in the direction of Viscara and punched the hyperdrive launching him into the void again.
He sighed with relief that he’d managed to get away, when suddenly he cave out of hyperdrive. It had been damaged and that had been its last jump… terrific… Worse still… He watched as the nearby planet came into view and cursed his terrific luck as he came crashing down into a wooded mountain area, bracing for impact at the last second.
Waking up was easy, he knew where he was and what had happened, but… As he stared at the broken screens and electronics he knew that he was going to have a rough night, at the very least. With his tools he pulled apart anything that wasn’t essential cannibalizing the parts and wires that he’d need for the more critical functions of the ship. Thankfully the cockpit hadn’t been damaged so he was safe there with the life support and gravity controls. Comms were shot and the nav computer was too, so until he got those up and running, that was going to be his primary objective.
Comms thankfully were easy to get back up, they hadn’t taken much of a beating and were easily able to just be boosted, even with his crippled ship. The nav computer however, was a lot more damaged, sparks flying from it as he tried to work. He’d gotten into contact with his master at least, so that was good. But where the kriff was he??? Slotting a few more wires into place and soddering them… There were some sparks and then the ship’s main computer kicked into action, the nav components starting back up again.
“Kriff me, finally! Now…where am I???” He looked at the chart. What a weird planet… It was habitable, but no company or planet or anyone had really claimed it. Huh… “Alright…” He saved the planet’s location before ejecting the disc. “Alright… Knight Althea, can you hear me? I’ve got the coordinates…” And with that he sent them off, knowing that he’d be getting a lecture all the way home…