Sandra walks into her apartment. To describe her feeling would be akin to a breeze, just strolling invisibly through time and space. Nothingness, and that was perfect. She felt perfect just the way she was.
A soft sigh escapes and the darkness and light inside her mix and swirl like two colors of flavors that do not blend together, but bind up instead to make a confection of art. She takes a step forward and another breath lets from her chest. Why was this feeling so right? She had not realized she was staring in the mirror of her bathroom, but the redhead looked back in the reflection, and for the first time in so long, she felt…
Sandra smiles and giggles for some time, leaning on the sink as she laughed and tears ran down her face. To use the Dark Side of the Force and to be forged with the Light Side of the force to be the perfect weapon.
“I am…a Monster, who will rend evil from its roots. I am a Beautiful Monster. My lightsaber and powers will bring balance and order to the universe.”
A whisper from her lesson plays in her mind…
"I can teach you things that your fellow Jedi could never dream of."
"When you are nothing…You can be anything you want."
"The force truly is what it is. Stop doubting it. Stop fearing.
You do not have to, so stop thinking you do. You are in control.
Nobody else is."
“I am in control…I am in control! I will be…The Shadow.”
Sandra slowly falls to her knees on the cold bathroom floor and laughs happily for once. She laughs and runs a hand through her hair as she had let the dark and light inside her find their way together. Though practice was needed, she knew what she had to do. She has an honest goal again. She had felt Whole.
“I feel Whole. It is okay, yes? It is okay for me to master this? I felt my true potential through Artemis and I…I want it. I adore feeling like everything is right! Like I am so balanced.”
Finally, she whispered into her own mind, the final words
“I am so proud of you, Sandra.”
Sandra sits there in the bathroom and immediately begins to Meditate where she is. Feeling both side on and off…mixing her cocktail of perfection…