“Teacher, why are you so angry at me?”
“You’re… innocent. You’ve not woken up yet, and seen the wounds the world forces us to be worn with- nor the weapons it gives us to hurt. I am sorry, I cannot prepare you for it.”
“It’s- okay. I forgive you, teacher. The Code keeps us, yes?”
“… Yes, of course, Solomon. You’ll be safe if you just close your eyes. The Code will be your sight.”
The world hurt you, and I was too young to see it. I thought you were a hero- when you saved me. I’d heard the stories of valiant jedi, our saviors from all the world’s evil and wrong. And you were mine for so long, in our illusions.
You’re the only thing on my mind when I am on any transport to my next wandering. I wonder if you’d be proud of the man I became? If you liked the flowers I left for you, on our backwater home? They were quite nice, I think.
I know you told me to not mess too much with my bandages. That, people, wouldn’t understand the scars from our lessons. “Jedi aren’t the heroes you thought they were.”, was always your excuse for their intensity. But you were my hero, teacher. I kept wandering, so I could find what pushed you away from the jedi. What kept you from being the paragon I always imagined you in my youth. I’ll leave the bandages alone. I don’t think anyone will want to see what lies beneath anyways, you always told me that affection would be lost on me, and I abhor wastefulness in myself or others.
I do not know if this will be the last stop. If I will find enlightenment on another backwater. So many before this- all holding various lessons. I don’t know if I want to remember you anymore, really, on this new beginning. I think your lessons were enough, and I can finally let you rest from my thoughts.
In your silence, I find peace.
In my scars, I find knowledge.
In my loneliness, I find serenity.
In my emptiness, I find harmony.
I cannot drown in grief, for I have the Force.
I will make you proud. I will become the hero you always wished you could’ve become before the world hurt you. I will protect all the hearts I can, from its cruelty. As I wish someone protected yours. I cannot fail, this is the only path.
