The young Chiss sits on the bed, his eyes stare at the datapad with the new program he had just paid to install. It was supposed to be a journal program, could keep it safe and secure for you. It felt silly but at this point, there was not really better options and Qy at least seemed to know what he was talking about. Tapping the program to open it, it lit up brightly welcoming him, asking for his name, taking a moment he slowly typed in “Sev’risk’aklaio”. The program locked in the name and asked for a password, slowly entering a rather long one he would remember, it accepted it and moved to page one for him to write in, taking a breath, he began to type
I don’t really know how to start this other then, well, what I just wrote. Life has always seemed to follow one set path, one of pain, disgrace, disgust and hatred. Always a bully right there to be sure to beat me down if I ever started to gain hope in my future. Viscara has not been any different. Slavery under the Hutts. With Sohma there was always the inquisitors telling me I was failing her, then with the Jedi, there is Vilnia. Also a former Sith. Also the one who enjoys beating me down every chance she gets.
Not only that, she seeks to cause me issues in the Temple to try and see me run out. Already turning Master Vrake against me, and made sure to kiss up that I “sympathized with the Sith” the night prior, which wasn’t exactly true. She is literally out to try and see my removal, so I have done the one thing she cannot win on. I have removed her from my existence. She does not seem to enjoy this, trying everything when in front of Masters or ranked Padawans to seem nice, kind and friendly rather then the snake in the grass she really is. I will not give her that satisfaction or anymore energy.
Since the matter with Master Vrake though, I just feel…cold. I’m not sure how to describe it, though when I spoke with Knight Qy, he said he suffered something similar, and advised to keep this journal. He didn’t seem to really have an answer on how to stop it, or how to get my powers working again, just that…well, keeping the journal apparently helps? I dont know what to think. I will have to hope this works out. I don’t know what is left if it doesn’t. Not that there are really many I can openly talk to about it anyways.
Pushing the save option it logged the program as Page one, then closed it and the program as he leaned back on the wall for a moment closing his eyes, before grabbing the pistol he kept and moved to head out, the hunters guild wouldn’t do the work for him.