Too Trust or not to trust?

Silvia sits on her bed, looking down at her uniform, freshly washed and dried by the hospital, a place where she had spent the better part of two hours, her hands still ached as she took a breath before getting up and walking through the room pacing as she thought before picking up a holorecorder

Master, I need your guidance.

In most cases I know that a Initiate respects padawans. We trust them nearly without question to guide us. Yet what about when that trust is betrayed? When that power is abused to harm us, to treat us like their lessers and made to feel as if we hold no value? I am not angry, more confused as to how I should be feeling.

Below I have attached the letter I sent to Master Vrake, it details everything that happened. My concerns are that Iskellia fully blames me for failing the lesson, that I am some horribly behaved initiate that didn’t trust her. Yet I did, I trusted her fully until she outright refused to hear something was wrong, that I felt in danger, and she used the force to shove me, not once, but at least three times to force me to stay where I felt I was in real danger, which is extremely disrespectful, endangering and confusing, even with me telling her that I believed I was in medical distress…neither she nor Corbin respected this, telling me I was very much wrong, in no danger.

It turns out my instincts were in fact correct. I wound up in the hospital last night with a core body temperature of 94.7. Which apparently is extremely dangerous. Enough so that I believe I reacted more out of an instinct to survive then anything. I would like your opinion though. Please review my letter to Master Vrake, as he is reviewing the “lesson”. Though I would ask you to grant me guidance in how to feel regarding this.

The camera turns off as she attaches a file to her message, before taking one more breath and uploading it to her teacher and sending it. A slow breath escaping her as she does before donning her robes, looking back at her hands before she flexes them again and moves to head out for the day

https://forums.starwarsnwn.com/t/message-to-master-vrake/1905