/// LOG 065 - Memoirs I, nature of Ambition
Not because I particularly enjoy my own voice or seek to fellate my own rhetoric, but there are many records of Sith having their words recorded in one way or the other. Perhaps in all of the things I say, there will be a crumb of insight to be shared with the future generations. If nothing else, it’ll serve as an opportunity for myself to go back and see if I still hold to prior beliefs.
The following is from speaking with one of the new aspirants who lacked an ambitious goal or direction. In an effort to jog her imagination, I shared some of my own and common principles. I do not like to speak too much on my own ambitions, when such are known, they can be exploited by others.
VISAS: “So, one of you is another ambitious alchemist. What of you, Aspirant?”
Aspirant: “I suppose i am working to be a blademaster along with a force wielder? I do not have trade skills, but i seek to learn and ever expand my knowledge.”
VISAS: “You ‘suppose’ Aspirant?”
Aspirant: “Mm, a poor choice of words on my part. I am still figuring my end goal out.”
VISAS: “You joined the Sith and seek to move beyond Aspirant without a single, crystalized ambition?”
Aspirant: “Is the pursuit of knowledge not an acceptable ambition? The desire to fell my enemies by working the blade is not acceptable either?”
VISAS: “It isn’t if there is no purpose to it beyond having a goal. Without conviction and purpose, you will never realize a single ambition beyond that of mediocrity.”
Aspirant: “Hmm, i see…”
VISAS: “A Sith stives for power not for the sake of power itself, but because there is something they intend to rectify about the very fabric of the Galaxy. I will let you in on mine, perhaps it will spark something in you beyond the pitiful kindling you call your ambitions.”
“The ‘force’, the living force as the disgraceful jedi call it, has its natural way of creation and shaping the Galaxy. I find it disgusting because it allows for such weakness to exist in far too many things to mention. I aim to rectify that inherent, evolutionary weakness in myself and the Galaxy itself. All shall be remade stronger, the rest will be fodder for the true ascension of the Sith.”
“Take a look around you. It was not that long ago we reclaimed but a portion of our legacy here on Korriban, with many more secrets beneath the sands. This Empire is still growing and recovering, like a beast licking its wounds. So we sharpen our teeth on the Republic and the Jedi and any else who would dare bare their necks.”
“Your ambition should serve you as much as it serves the Sith, Aspirant. And it should be your crystalized focus to pursue. I do not expect you to grasp or understand that now, but heed my words and it will come in time. Or you will perish like the rest of the mediocre force-wielders that like to call themselves Sith. Any questions?”
Aspirant: “You say that creation and shaping the galaxy is disgusting, yet do you not seek to do the same? Remaking is the same as creation, just with the added step of destruction. Which could be seen as the other side of the same coin as creation.”
VISAS: “A simple misunderstanding. What I aim is to remove the inherent restrictions that make much of creation far more fragile and weak than it should be. You have been to Dathomir, yes? An evolutionary spawning pool of where the strong grow much stronger and the weak get devoured. Such is the Sith way.”
Aspirant: “I have. A disgusting planet, yet it seems to simply exude the dark side.”
VISAS: "Disgusting? Ah no … dear Aspirant, that is a beautiful and magical place. A statement of the dark side.
VISAS: "The second insight when it comes to ambition, Aspirant, is that none will ever truly understand yours. However crystalized it is. Others will doubt it, try to disprove it and hold you back. That is the way of things. Some may certainly agree with parts of it. But a grand ambition is only grand when it is unique to yourself. A driving force behind your every action.
Aspirant: “I think I understand, or at least I begin to. I will have to evaluate my goals it seems… and what it is i want most…”
VISAS: “There are many flaws in the Galaxy. Find the one that bothers you the most and make sure to rectify it. Even if the flaw is your own personal ambition or weakness.”
